proud sometimes about wanting to take care of us. Raheem is the same way, but at least heâs practical about it. Weâve had low times around here, times when the Panther Breakfast was the only whole meal I got to eat in a day, and I canât forget that, even if Mama wants to pretend.
âGo away now. I have to get dressed,â I tell her.
With a huffy little âOkay, then,â she glides out of the room.
CHAPTER 12
I GO DOWN TO THE SCHOOLYARD A BIT EARLY. I want to get there in time for the morning lineup. The Panthers form ranks on the blacktop and Leroy leads them in chants.
There they stand in dark straight rows. In the rising light of morning, taking in the fresh air feels like breathing new life. I linger outside the fence, watching Leroy up on his milk crate, presiding over the ranks. Fist raised, he calls out, âPower to the people!â
The Panther columns answer back, a deep, thunderous roar like a single massive voice: âPower to the people!â
I close my eyes, pretend Iâm standing among them. It feels good. Shoulder to shoulder with my brothers and sisters in arms. Feels like we can take on the world, one day at a time. One pig at a time, some days. Build a world where batons donât crush and white doesnât always equal right.
After being in the crowd last night, I see everythinganew. The Panthers are going to change everything. Iâve known it all along, but now I can feel it all the way through me.
The convention is still going on downtown. I suppose a crew of Panthers will be going again today, but I know I canât go back. My place is here. In the neighborhood. Not up in a whole white riot. One close call is enough for me.
I lace my fingers through the chain link, wishing I was over there with the rest of them. Fourteen isnât old enough to be a full-on Panther, everyone says. Weâre supposed to be part of the young Panthers for another couple of years. Go to The Breakfast, go to political education class on Wednesdays and the Freedom School on Saturdays with the little kids, looking smart all lined up with berets cocked this way and that. I help take care of the young ones and tell them what I know, but the real Panthers sometimes look at me like Iâm also still a baby who needs to learn. But I know plenty. Iâve been around the block enough times to know the size and shape of things. Iâm ready. I know it.
I look through the fence at the most familiar face in the lineup. Sam is the exception, I guess. Probably because of his brother, Steve, who was one of the first Chicago Panthers. Steve died being a Panther too. Or maybe Sam gets an exception because of his dad, who is RolandChilds. Mr. Childs is well-known around the neighborhood because heâs a civil rights movement leader like Dr. King was. He makes speeches and plans big demonstrations that Raheem used to take me to, before the Panthers came along.
From his perch on the milk crate, Leroy Jackson starts leading the ranks in a series of chants. Iâve seen it many times before. He starts them out simple, then gets them all riled up.
âWho we gonna be?â
âThe Black Panther Party.â
âI canât hear you. . . . Who we gonna be?â
âThe Black Panther Party.â The echo rings loud throughout the schoolyard. It resonates. Deep. People passing by canât help but turn to look.
So much power radiates from the Panther lineup. All this pent-up energy, so huge and so tight that you can practically see it steaming off them. That runaway feeling just come to a standstill, that terrible, terrible anger. Always in control, always just beneath the surface.
In the white newspapers, they use it against us. They make the Panthers look like we all just want to rip the throats out of some white folks for no good reason. We have good reasons, but we still donât want to do that.
âWhatâs it all about?â
âItâs