need to sleep and I donât know how,â the boy murmured, rubbing his eyes.
âWeâre lost,â said his sister. âWeâre locked in and canât get out.â
âAnd you,â I said to the burned man. âWere you in the building too? How come thereâs no mention of you in the newspaper?â
âBen?â
Miss Whittaker again, still a murmur, even farther away.
A distant sound of stifled laughter. The gasp of twenty-four students catching their breath.
Across the room, the threesome began slowly backing up to the door. âHelp us,â they said, all three together. âHelp us sleep.â
âBut how? Tell me how. I donât know how!â
Uncontrollable tears filled my eyes, throwing everything in front of me out of focus. I took a step around the desk, meaning to follow them. The sudden pressure of a hand on my shoulder brought me back.
âItâs all right,â Miss Whittaker was saying. âWhatever you saw isnât there now. Come with me.â
She took my arm, guiding me past the desk to the door. I couldnât look at the others as we passed.
I didnât need to, either. I knew they were staring at me in openmouthed wonder.
Sniffing back tears, I wiped my eyes with a forearm and followed Miss Whittaker out.
âThis way, Ben, this way.â
She ushered me out to the dim corridor, her hand still holding my arm.
âWeâll get you to the nurse,â she said.
âI donât need a nurse.â
âLet her have a look at you all the same, just to be sure.â Poking her head back inside the classroom, she said, âNow, children, no noise. Matthew, youâre in charge while Iâm gone.â
As she closed the door, I glanced inside the room. The man and the children were gone. Sheâd been right about that, even if she hadnât seen them herself.
There was a dark patch on the varnished floor more or less where theyâd been sitting. Ashes, maybe, or a fragment of burned clothing. Or maybe only a scuff mark caused by the friction of chair legs scraping back and forth over it all down the years.
T hrough the closed door of the nurseâs bright but small office, I could hear them whispering out in the corridor.
Miss Whittaker said it must be first-day nerves, a little migraine perhaps. She said I seemed to be highly strung.
The nurse, dark-haired with a thin, unsmiling face, shone lights in my eyes and checked my throat and took my temperature. Temperature was a tad high, she said, but otherwise I was well enough to go home.
She scribbled something in a notebook, gave me an aspirin with water, and sent me on my way. It was a waste of time, and I didnât dare imagine what the others thought of me after what had happened back in the classroom.
But I knew what Iâd seen.
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Before going home I cut around from Middleton Road onto Henryd Street. If anyone had asked why Iâd gone there, I wouldnât have known how to answer, except to say I needed to.
Above the fence that had been erected to protect the remains of the building, I could only make out the very top of the roof. Blackened and slimy, with smoke still rising faintly above it, it looked ready to crumble apart. The air still hung heavy with the stench of soot.
A TV antenna was still in place up there, warped out of shape by the heat. A raven perched on one of its conductors, staring straight down at me.
It sat there a minute or so, not moving. Then something disturbed it â the slam of a car door up the street. The bird took off above the rooftops, heading for London Fields.
Around the side of the block, the top of the fire escape was just visible. It had blistered and broken loose and now hung slack against the wall like a busted limb.
I turned toward home. I didnât feel like looking anymore, and I didnât know what Iâd expected to find. It mustâve been the thought that Mitch and Molly might