if I had done her a big personal favor. I couldnât bring myself to say youâre welcome, staring into the silhouette of her head, her hair the kind that doesnât take much of a curl, a lank wave down to each shoulder. I told her I wanted to hear more about tornadoes.
Mrs. Jovanovich was a white-haired woman who walked with two silvery canes. Her family had owned land near Pebble Beach, and her husband had been a television producer. Now her only daughter lived in England, and Dad shepherded her estate through insurance payments, lease agreements, even helping her buy a new hearing aid when an improved model was advertised. This was typical of the kind of support Dad gave his clients, and it was clear to me that Mrs. Jovanovich must have suffered some heart flutter or the legal equivalent of a fainting spell that kept him on the phone to London or to a doctor.
But when Mom asked how did it go, looking up from a mess of paperwork, I didnât know what to tell her. She meant: Tell me you father didnât marry a cliché blonde, a brainless flirt. But I didnât want to go into detail and have to tell her that Dad had never shown up.
âShe knows all about hogs,â I said.
âNo kidding,â said Mom, with greater interest than I expected.
âYou donât want to live downwind,â I said. âIf you raise too many pigs per acre itâs bad for the water table. The manure soaks into the ground.â
âHarvey must love hearing about that every night,â she said. Everyone called my Dad by his entire first name, never Harv.
âHogs ate a boyâs fingers off,â I said, since the subject seemed to intrigue Mom. âHe passed out from the fumes, and the animals thought he was fodder,â using Cindyâs exact words.
The drive from Oakland to Sacramento takes a couple of hours, some one hundred miles through metropolitan fringe, dairy-cow hills, and at last the flat pasture land that used to be an inland sea, according to Rowan. In prehistoric time, he means, although sometimes during winter a levee breaks and again the valley turns into ocean.
Denise suffers from hay fever, and she is almost superstitious about taking antihistamines before a meet, worried they might make her pee test come out false-positive. I tell her this is unlikely in the extreme, but athletes trust suffering.
Some schools rent little yellow school busses, or own cute little vans with REDWOOD PREPARATORY or CARMEL HIGH SCHOOL lettered on the door panel. The academy rents air-conditioned Peerless Stage busses, the same conveyances gamblers charter for the long trip to Reno. The bus was not half full, even with the chaperones, the volunteer supervisors, wives of dentists, and professors on sabbatical. The seats have head cushions, and the armrests have obsolete ashtrays, little metal doors you can flip open and see the old freckles of ash even professional maintenance cannot completely remove. The seats cushions are green velour, very comfy.
Denise and I are among the leading lights of the swim and dive team, and we are also the youngest members, so the other athletes leave us alone. There is no chill involved, itâs all amiable. But Denise and I often lunch together, or swing into the back seat of a bus, and they give us a nod or a wave and let us be. Miss P came to the rear of the bus, hand to hand along the seat backs, asking if Denise was okay.
âSnot,â said Denise, sounding like someone talking from inside a pillow. âMy head is full of it.â
Miss P shook her head sympathetically and hunched to get a better view of the dry, empty fields. âAdrenaline will clear it,â said Miss P, and this was true. A sudden shock, or anticipating the gaze of five thousand strangers, will clear your sinuses before you even suit up.
âMy head feels like itâs this big,â said Denise almost peacefully.
âIâm allergic to acacia,â said Miss P, and