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sneak around people's backyards. I was like, "All right dude. I'm just going to spend the night at your house. You know, if that's cool with you." They left and Loretta said I could watch a movie with her in her bedroom. So we're sitting there watching a movie, the movie that actually later on got me thinking of joining the Navy... An Officer and a Gentleman. And there's some steamy parts in it.
She's in her bed and I'm lying on the floor and she says, "You can lie on my bed if you want to." So now I'm lying in her bed and she had always told me how attractive she thought I was. She never looked at me as though I was the type of person her son was, running around in the woods playing war games. She thought I was very mature. Nobody else was there. Her son was gone, her husband was gone. It started with her putting her hand on my arm and we made love for hours. I had thought, from the time I was 12 years old until the time I was 15 years old, about sex with girls but I knew it wouldn’t be a pleasurable experience for them so I never wanted to go through with it. Not to say that it was a religious experience but the fact remains that it did enlighten me spiritually... it was incredible. And she was my spiritual teacher, as well as my sexual one.
Nobody knew what I was chanting for. Her son didn't know what I was chanting for. I wasn’t gonna tell Owen that I wanted to do it with his mom. Chanting and praying for what you want, it's inside of yourself. As far as the prayer goes, you're not verbally asking out loud, it's just the heart's desire that is inside of you, what you want. To actually be with her after wanting that for so long it was very spiritual. And every time that I've been with anyone else after that you know, I always looked at sex as a spiritual event as opposed to just having sex... just doing whatever with anybody.
All my buddies growing up, they'd screw whoever. They didn't care about people's feelings or emotions. But for me, if I'm to learn how to make love to a woman, I need to learn from a woman.
Owen found out about it though. Our buddy Jay told him. Because... once again... high school, these guys were trying to have sex with whoever and whatever and Jay was sleeping with this girl Donna and he'd never been with anybody before so he was always pre-ejaculating all over her. But Donna also had a crush on me and so she and I later on slept together but because I'd already slept with Loretta it was like I knew what I needed to do to make this something enjoyable for her as opposed to just concentrating on how I was going to get off. Donna had told me what happened with Jay and wondered why I didn’t have the same problem. I was like, "Well I need to tell you something. I slept with Owen’s mom." And so high school still being high school, she told Jay and Jay told Owen and Owen confronted me during our high school graduation.
He was all right with it. His mother was married to his stepfather so she had obviously had several different men in her life before. He wasn't upset with me but he was weird about it. But what can you do? It wasn't like she was drunk, I didn't take advantage of her. If anything she took advantage of me. She stayed married to her husband and I don't think he ever found out. But it was great. And it wasn't like something she did all the time, sleeping with a bunch of young guys. I waited for the longest time and then when it happened for me it was... it was religious.

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I'm originally from St. Joseph, Missouri. Been out in Denver for about the past 20 years. I left the "Show-Me State" when I was like eight years old, moved up here to Colorado and lived in a suburb of Denver called Arvada. It’s predominantly, I’d say, 95% white.
The first time I kissed a girl I was about 13 years old. Kissing pretty much just lead to other things, you know touchy-touchy, feel-feel… experimenting. She was my neighbor and her name was Charity. We