little Danny. I donât know how you can bear it.â
âWell,â said Frank, âI donât think I can.â
âOh God,â she said. âI hope heâs at peace.â
âI think so, Daphne. Thanks.â
âWhat are you going to do now?â Mo asked him, after Daphne had left the room. âYouâll have to go home sooner or later.â
âI donât know. Iâm not sure that our marriage is going to be able to survive a thing like this.â
âOf course it will. Margotâs in shock, thatâs all, just like you are. She needs somebody to blame for what happened and youâre that somebody. You wait till the cops nab these bastards, then sheâll see that it wasnât your fault.â
Frank sat staring at the balls of crumpled-up paper all over the floor. He had been thinking about Danny so much that he felt as if somebody had been repeatedly hitting him on the head with a heavy book. He needed to sleep but he knew that he couldnât. He needed to talk to Margot, too, to try to atone for what he had done, but he knew he couldnât do that, either.
âWhat about next weekâs show?â he asked Mo. âDo you think you and Lizzie can wrap it up on your own?â
âFor Christâs sake, donât worry about the show, Frank. Theyâll probably cancel it in any case.â
âThey shouldnât. They shouldnât cancel it. We canât let people like that destroy everything weâve worked for. Thatâs just what they want.â
âFrank, itâs not just Pigs thatâs going to be affected here. What about Philly 500 and The Fairchild Family and May To September and The Kings of Orange County ? What about Ollie Peller? Heâs halfway through scoring that new John Badham picture. Itâs going to be total fucking paralysis. Anybody who lost a kid is not going to be able to do any serious work, are they? And everybody else is going to be far too jumpy.â
Frank slowly shook his head. âThey sure know how to pick their targets, donât they? American capitalism on September 11, American popular culture on September 22.â
Mo said, âMy advice to you is go home. You have to face up to this situation with Margot. You do and she does, both. Iâm talking to you as a brother.â
âOK,â said Frank. He looked around the conference room and gave something that was nearly a smile. âI canât think of any good gags, anyhow.â
Three
H e didnât go home. He was too sick at heart and he knew that Margot wasnât yet ready to talk to him. He called her from his cellphone but she didnât pick up. Either she didnât want to hear from him, or she was out seeing her friend Ruth in Coldwater Canyon.
The smog had cleared and it was a warm, clear morning. He had the impression that there were more police cars around than usual, and he saw two police helicopters in the time it took him to drive from The Avenue of the Stars to the San Diego Freeway. He didnât switch on his car radio, though. There was only one topic of conversation on every waveband.
He reached the ocean. The water was glittering like smashed mirrors, and gulls were wheeling and screaming over the beach. He parked his car and walked along the promenade toward the municipal pier.
An old man approached him. He was wearing a long-billed baseball cap and a saggy gray T-shirt and saggy orange shorts. The veins in his legs looked like a street map of Laurel Canyon, a mass of wriggly blue roads. One of his eyes was totally white.
âLost?â He grinned, showing four mahogany-colored teeth.
Frank shook his head and carried on walking, but the old man limped along beside him. âI can always tell when someoneâs lost. They have that look about them.â
âReally? What look is that?â
âThat lost look.â
âWell, let me put your mind at rest. Iâm not