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FOUR
A fter a restless night, I got up early and set about helping my mother prepare the first meal for all of us. I had barely slept, and I was grumpily â but silently â asking myself how on earth Iâd managed to get a decent nightâs rest in the days when Iâd lived permanently at home, in the midst of my large family. You can, I suppose, get used to anything. The trouble was that Iâd become accustomed to the luxury of peaceful nights, either just with Edild for company or, when living in Cambridge with my teacher, Gurdyman, alone in my little loft.
My mother looked exhausted. My heart went out to her and, putting aside my self-pity, I took the large stone vessel out of her hands and went outside to fetch water.
My father was looking thoughtful as he ate his porridge. I had told the family the previous evening about the disturbed graves and about my hasty (and highly foolhardy, according to my father) dash across the marsh to check on Granny out on the island. I guessed this was what was occupying him and, when at length he spoke, I was proved right.
âItâs no longer common practice to bury grave goods with the dead,â he mused. âHasnât been for many a long year. Not something the Church approves of, telling us as they do that we go to meet our maker mother-naked, just as we entered the world.â
My mother gave him a swift, impatient look. She is a woman who always keeps both feet firmly on the ground. If anyone had the temerity to ask her opinion on some question broadly to do with the realm of gods and spirits, she would brush the question aside with some sort of dismissive comment, such as, âI know what I believe and thatâs good enough for me.â She does not waste her time pondering unanswerable questions, and has little patience with those who do.
I thought I knew what my father was thinking. I often do. âThe giant intruder has exhausted the places where the living members of our family could have hidden whatever it is heâs searching for,â I said quietly, just to my father. âYouâre thinking, too, that heâs been driven to looking in the graves of our dead?â It was just what Iâd concluded the previous day.
âI am,â he agreed softly. He smiled grimly. âJust as well he doesnât know about the island, isnât it?â
I nodded. It was, of course, because it would have been dreadful if, like the relatives of the disturbed dead in the churchyard, weâd been faced with the desecration of a loved oneâs grave. Had it happened, it would in any case have been all for nothing.
I saw my granny in her grave and I knew there was nothing buried with her except for some of her most treasured possessions and a scattering of flowers. By now the flowers would be turned to dust, and the few simple personal objects had already been worn down by a lifetimeâs hard use when they went into the ground. A bone comb, beautifully carved but with half its teeth missing. A prettily crafted drinking cup, mended at least twice. A soft woolly shawl, much darned. There was surely nothing in the grave with Granny that anyone else would take such extreme steps to retrieve.
I reached out and took my fatherâs hand. He had loved his mother dearly. I was so glad, for all of us but especially for him, that her eternal sleep had not been interrupted.
I worked hard all day with Edild, my thoughts fully occupied so that there was little time for wondering whether my father would relent and let me return to sleeping at my auntâs house. When I did briefly dwell on it, it occurred to me that perhaps he wasnât only thinking of me. If, as it seemed, it was my fatherâs children who were the objects of the giant intruderâs search, then my presence in Edildâs house might also put her in danger. Edild, I knew, was under Hrypeâs protection, but I very much doubted that anyone else was