the presents and mumbles, âI like McDonnos.â
Dad asks, âWhat?â
Everyone else just ignores it.
âHappy birf-day, S-S-S-Swan,â Debi says, breaking the awkward silence.
I think, âTanks a million Deb-o-reeno!â
When Debi spots the cake, chocolate this time, and the tub of French vanilla ice cream, her spirits seem to rise dramatically.
Everybody sings âHappy Birthdayâ to me and Mom cuts the cake, scoops on the ice cream, and serves each of us.
She feeds me a bite at a time, while everyone else eats too. My eyes drift to the faces around the table, everyone smiles and visits with one another, even Debi seems happy. I understand that birthdays are the one day out of a year when a person should get to feel special just for being alive.
On my birthdays I have always wondered why I was born. My parents divorced because of me. My Mom lugs me around like an overgrown baby all day. And nobody thinks that Iâm anything more than a guy with the mental abilities of large zucchini squash and a broken drool switch stuck on high. But I look at these faces again, my family and Debi, and they all look so happy, truly happy to be here celebrating me.
Why canât I just be happy too? Seriously, what the hellâs gotten into me lately? Okay, Shawn, thatâs it! I mean it! Be honest. This year doesnât feel as much like a farce. Dad showed up. Iâm still alive. Iâve had two cakes in one day. My family cares about me enough to be happy that I was born, glad that Iâm here with them. Plus I have new socks. I really like new socks!
Is this your life, Shawn?
Yer damned straight it is!
Cheer up!
Get a flippinâ clue, dude!
Some things never change ⦠then again some things do!
14
Y es, things are changing. Debi and Rusty have been living here for three weeks. Rusty hasnât eaten me, and life with them has started to feel ⦠normal?
âNormalâ isnât right, because I donât think itâs possible to have a ânormalâ life with me in the house. At least not like the homes of families I see on TV. But weird as we might be, Debi and Rusty coming here has juiced up our lives. They have changed us, and weâre living a new definition of ânormal.â
Debi has a routine: She gets up every morning, Monday through Friday, makes her bed, and makes her own lunch for school. Debi is a stickler for putting her laundry away. Mom says that Debiâs bedroom is by far the tidiest spot in the house.
Each morning Debi unloads the dishwasher without being asked. Unfortunately, a couple days ago, Mom hadnât run the dishwasher the night before, so the dishes were still dirty; Debi put them away anyway. After her chores, she sits on the little bench in the entryway and waits for her white, square paratransit bus to take her to âschoo.â The same bus brings her back home at around four. To be honest, Iâm glad I donât have to take that bus. It doesnât look to me anything like a high-end limo service.
On weekends Debi hangs out in the basement and plays her favorite movie over and over and over again. She calls this movie The Sound of the Music and sheâs watched it, and this is not an exaggeration, two times each Saturday and two more times each Sunday every weekend since she moved in. And she plays it LOUD! My main sitting spot upstairs is right above a heat vent that carries the sound. So Iâve heard âDoe, a deer, a female deer; ray, a drop of golden sunâ and every other line from every other song twelve times over the last three weeks. I have no reason to believe I wonât hear it another four times every weekend for the rest of our lives together. One word: torture.
Yesterday when Debi returned from school, Mom noticed something odd in her appearance. âDebi,â Mom asked, âare you hiding something under your coat?â
Debi said, âNo hiding ⦠it