with.â
âSomething with which you identify,â she said playfully. âArenât you glad youâre talking to that fun girl at the party who reminds you to never end a sentence on a preposition?â
âYou should also try to never split an infinitive,â I said, but whoever was manning the volume control cranked it up and she didnât hear me.
âJust one request, please,â the rapper boomed from the speakers, and everyone in the room pumped their fists and chanted along to the next line: â That all yâall suckers can choke on these! â
The volume was lowered. âI hope to play that at my wedding someday,â I said with a nervous laugh.
âWhat a coincidence,â Sara said. âI was saving it for my father-Âdaughter dance.â
She looked down, cheeks reddening, and excused herself for the bathroom. As I refilled my drink, Ivana showed up.
âSo, Saraâs cute,â she said, much like a mother suggesting a piece of fruit for dessert.
That word again. I considered her assessment. Saraâs dishwater-Âbrown hair was generally pulled back in a ponytail, and her face looked like a sculpture someone hadnât thought worth putting the finishing touches on, its planes and protrusions not fully defined. But when she smiled she was, I supposed, cute.
âMmhuh,â I grunted.
âOh, youâre playing it cool.â She smirked. âNo worries. By the way, do you have any idea if Stevenâs hooking up with anyone?â
â Steven? I doubt it.â
âTo both of us playing it cool, then,â she toasted, bumping her beer against the rim of my cup and spilling it again.
Sara returned. Ivana gave me a knowing look as she melted back into the throng.
Two ovals of perspiration had bloomed in Saraâs underarms. She noticed right after I did, noticed Iâd noticed, and crossed her arms.
âWell, screw it,â she said, uncrossing them. âI sweat. Big deal.â
She finished her beer and I asked if she wanted another. âI was thinking about heading back, actually,â she said. âBut I can hang out for a little more if you want to go after this drink.â
It wasnât that late yet. You might show up.
âIâll probably stick around for a while.â
âOkay,â she said. âSee you later.â
I got another drink and searched for Steven and Ivana. I didnât find them but saw a face that looked strangely familiar, as if it were the instantiation of one Iâd hazily conjured up in nightmares over the years. Pug-nosed and short, he nonetheless commanded the attention of a circle of listeners. At one point he tipped his head back in amusement at something heâd himself said. Over the musicI heard a strident cackle, the sound a pterodactyl might make if it could laugh.
Scott Tupper was at Harvard.
One day in fifth grade, Jessica Waltham, one of the popular girls, passed me a note in homeroom.
âI have something to tell you at recess,â sheâd written. The i of something was dotted with a heart.
At the appointed time Jessica stood alone while the rest of our class frolicked on the playground. I timidly approached.
âI love you,â she said, looking at her sneaker as she toed the rubber matting.
Even in those latency-phase days I understood that this was Âsocio-romantic validation of the highest order.
âThank you,â I replied.
Neither of us spoke. Then Jessica looked over her shoulder at Scott, who had seemingly come out of nowhere, his minions in tow.
âDid he say he loves you?â he asked.
Jessica responded with a less-than-convincing nod, but that was enough to send the boys into hysterics.
I wasnât familiar with the word entrapment , but knew Iâd been the victim of something. Nor was I aware that Scott and Jessica had recently begun âdating,â whatever that meant at our age. I protested that I
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