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brother. He was sure the army would fix things, and then they could go home.
    We burned our house today— begins one page dated before Honoria started writing in her book. It’s sandwiched into a stack containing details of her father’s disappearance and worry over a friend whose dog had wandered to Honoria’s house half starved and filthy.
    One of my teachers is here, isn’t that weird? I don’t think school exists anymore, but I can only think of him that way.
    There’s an entire list of entries like that—short sentences about people she noticed at random. They’re scribbled on squares of colored paper and glued into the book.
    • The kids are getting quieter at night. They’ve figured out crying doesn’t fix things. It doesn’t bring back parents or stop friends from leaving.
    • One of the base officers is kind of cute. He’s nice, too. He gave me an extra apple at dinner because he thinks I’m getting too skinny.
    This one’s stuck to a whole page with Kevin written in different ways.
    • The colonel’s watching us. He thinks we’re dangerous because of Dad, but he’s the greater threat. I saw him burn his hands. He’d only do that if one of them touched him. It won’t do me any good to tell, no one listens to me. I’m just a kid.
    The colonel.
    The colonel. It’s not a name; it’s a title. Col. Lutrell’s name is James. Lt. Sykes’s first initial is K , according to his name tag. For Kevin , maybe?
    Colonel and lieutenant are designations from the world before the Fade, so why do both have them when no one else does?
    Could Tobin’s father be as old as Honoria? Older?
    Tobin’s good luck charm is that photo from the world before. A boy on a beach who became his father’s namesake, but what if it’s a picture of the colonel himself. Did he lie to his own son?
    That would mean Honoria didn’t lie to me.
    Now it’s more than curiosity; I need to read on.
    The entries become sporadic, jumping dates.
    July 6
    This morning I realized the 4th had passed with no fireworks. A couple of hours later, it sunk in why—there’s no country anymore.
    No one’s celebrating anything after the rain last night, anyway. It cost us the bonfires. We hadn’t had darkness in weeks, besides that black shroud that’s swallowed everything we left behind.
    People were screaming and crying, scrambling to find candles and flashlights. They tried to get all the doors and windows shut, but there was so much howling and scratching and noise . . .
    There was Spacey Tracey, sitting by the exit, in the dark. She laid her hand against the door, and said, “I know, I will” to nobody. Mom says she’s talking to her family, that she can’t deal with what’s happened to them, but Mom’s wrong. If Tracey was talking to her family, she’d use their names. She doesn’t.
    And her eyes were not that blue last week. They’re nearly silver. No one notices things like that, but they should. I saw Dad’s eyes. I remember them.
    That nuthatch is going to break and run one of these nights, and I wish . . . I wish they’d get rid of her. There—I said it. I know it’s horrible, and I know it makes me a bad person, but I don’t care. I don’t want her around.
    I heard the adults talking. These old ventilation pipes catch everything and broadcast it like stereo. They don’t know what to do, and that scares them.
    No . . . I think what really scares them is that they do know, and no one wants to do it. Not to pretty Tracey, who used to be so sweet and so smart, but they don’t get it. Tracey’s gone.
    I hate this place.
    I want to go home.
    Things change after Tracey. People Honoria mentions on one page are lost within the next three. She kept a list, tracking who left on what day, through several sheets held together with metal clips. I bet she didn’t miss a single name.
    Pages and pages are doodles of trees without leaves. Their branches are spindly and gruesome— ominous . The first few are practice for one that