dad,â he said. âYou know what he says? He says the difference between a strong man and a weak man is that the strong man will do anything, even kill, to remain strongâ¦the weak man will do anything, even die, to remain weak. He says that a man who is both strong and good will kill to remain strong, and will hate himself for it.â
I looked at Adan, and a little smile teased his infinitely kissable lips. Thatâs about when things started to get really complicated. I knew my little stunt with Fred would have ended my chances with most of the guys Iâd met. Not because they felt sorry for Fred or disapproved of violence or anything like that, but because they would have felt threatened and humiliated by it.
The bottom line was that Iâd worked over the vampire because Iâd wanted to protect Adan. And he didnât seem to mind. The reason for his enlightened attitude was obviousâhe knew the outfit. He knew the life. He knew that in the underworld it wasnât about girl power versus machismo or any of that shit. It was about the juice. I had it and he didnât. Adan accepted that. He maybe didnât like it, exactly, but he was man enough to deal with it. For a girl like me, Adan was a miracle.
By the time we got to the beach, Iâd forgotten why I went tothe club. Sitting with Adan on the sand, listening to the sound of the waves and the wind, I forgot about Jamal altogether.
We were sitting quietly together when I heard laughter drifting across the water. The moon was out, and I could see there were no late-night surfers or swimmers out there.
I nudged Adan. âWatch,â I said. I scooped up a handful of juice that washed ashore with the tide and spun a spell of true seeing. Golden, sparkling light cascaded out over the waves. The light revealed figures frolicking in the surf, male and female, their skin so pale it was almost translucent in the moonlight.
âOh, my God. What are they?â Adan whispered.
âOcean spirits. Mermaidsâmerpeopleâor something like it. When I was a kid, I used to come down here all the time just to try to catch a glimpse of them. Theyâre more common now than they used to be. I donât know why. Sometimes Iâd go months without seeing one.â
The creatures noticed us and froze, suspended in the water like seaweed bobbing in the tide. Then, as suddenly as theyâd appeared, they were gone. I dropped the spell and the light faded.
âDomino, that was amazing. I had no idea,â Adan said, moving closer to me. I shivered, shamelessly, and he wrapped an arm around me and pulled me against his body.
âThereâs a whole world out there most people never even see,â I said. âSome of it is beautiful.â Most of it just wants to eat you. I decided to keep that part to myself.
âI want to see you again, Domino.â
âIâd like that.â
âWhat about my father?â
âYeah, Iâll have to see him again, too.â
Adan laughed. âNo, I mean, he probably wouldnât approve.â
I smiled. âIâm sure of it. He probably wants you to find a nice professional girl, like a doctor or lawyer or something.â
âNo, he hates lawyers.â
âWell, whatever fathers want for their sons these days, Iâm pretty sure a gangster isnât what he has in mind. If youâre planning to get involved in the outfit, it could get really complicated.â
Adan didnât respond and I looked over at him. He was staring down at his feet, tracing abstract designs in the sand with his fingertips.
âDid I say something wrong?â
He shook his head. âNah, itâs okay. Itâs justâ¦I canât ever be part of the outfit.â He looked up at me, and I thought I saw real pain in his eyes. âI donât have it, Domino. Iâm not a sorcerer.â
I already knew that, and I felt stupid for being so careless with my