close friends with a man living with the woman who was once my wife. Even worse, I donât know what Iâd do if I still loved her.â
âClose friends? Theyâre more than close friends,â Hefetz had said. âTheyâre likeâ¦theyâre like brothers, like brothers, theyâve been together since childhood, itâs like theyâre family. Donât you think theyâre like family? They were like family! I myself have heard Rubin call Benny âpractically my own flesh and blood.â So what would you do in his place? Give up on your own brother? What would you do? They were like family, donât you think they were like family?â
âThatâs why itâs even harder to comprehend,â Zadik had said. âI wouldnât be able to handle it.â
âNobody ever knows what he can handle and what he canât,â Hefetz had exclaimed fervently. âWhat person knows what heâs capable of? Does anyone know what heâs capable of? No, nobody knows, how could they? As for meâ¦â He fell silent suddenly. Zadik followed his gaze and caught sight of Natasha at the newsroom door, her hair disheveled, wearing her usual getup: army jacket, jeans, and a ratty red scarf. She stood scanning the room as though looking for someone until she fixed her large sky blue eyes on him, on Zadik. For a moment she gazed at them both, then turned around and walked back down the hall. Hefetzâs face clouded over.
Zadik could not for the life of him understand these entanglements that people got themselves into. Okay, he himself had not been completelyâ¦but with a twenty-five-year-old girl?! Only one year older than Hefetzâs own daughter? These people had no limits, and at work, no less! To get mixed up with a girl you worked with, thatâs something he himself would never have done. Anyway, not here, maybe overseas, where nobody couldâ¦
The drill started pounding again, and a cloud of dust rolled out from the open door of the adjacent room straight into the newsroom.
âTell them to lay off,â Zadik instructed Aviva.
âHow can I?â she answered with a shrug. âIâve been waiting a month for them to come. You wanted renovations, you said the foreign correspondentsâ room needed renovating. Thatâs what you said, didnât you? Iâve been waiting a month for these guys, so todayâs the day they start work. Iâm not going to tell them to lay off now. If you want to, tell them yourself. Call Maintenance.â
âStop!â Zadik shouted. âTake a break, go drink some coffee, come back in an hour!â The two workers stood at the doorway of the foreign correspondentsâ room, staring at him. Zadik tried to soften his tone. âHavenât you heard what happened?â he asked. The worker holding the drill stared at him in silence. âDidnât you hear that one of our senior employees was killed last night?â The second worker shook his head and whispered something to the first. They emerged from the correspondentsâ room and stood at the doorway of the newsroom stealing furtive glances at the people seated around the conference table. Aviva hurried over to them.
âCome back in an hour or two,â she told them. She turned to Zadik, casting him a look of reproach. âIt took me ages to get these guys here, ages for them to find the time to do the job, and then you go and toss them out.â
âWeâve got to get the lineup started, there are all kinds of problems and changes with tonightâs topics,â Hefetz said, to which Zadik nodded. Erez made a show of rattling the page in front of him.
âJust another word or two,â Zadik told him, clearing his throat again. âThereâs more I need to tell them.â Erez sighed, and Hefetz covered his sheet of paper with his two large hands.
âWe all know,â Zadik began, his voice