My Misery Muse by Brei Betzold Read Free Book Online Page B

him to fully understand that I had tried to tell him about Jaks. Then I would let it go, because he was here now and nothing could change the past.
     
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    I sat there looking at Devi, my god, she was beautiful, with her short spiky hair, Pin’s ink tank top, and short skirt. I could see new tats on her arms, legs, even one across her chest.  I had the urge to take her home, strip her down and explore the new ink with my fingertips, kissing the sensitive skin behind her ear. I felt myself stir and I knew as I always have, there will be no one else for me but Devlin.
     
    I was so lost in my thoughts of having her naked and beneath me that I missed what she had said. “Uhm what, sorry I was zoned out there for a minute?”
     
    She blushed as if she knew exactly what I was thinking, and hopefully  she had similar thoughts about me.
     
    “Uhm, I went to LA,” she said.
     
    That stopped me for a second, she’d been in LA, when, and why didn’t she come see me?
     
    “Why didn’t you come see me, Dev?” I asked quietly, not sure I really wanted an answer.
     
    “I went by your apartment, you weren’t home, or at least that’s what Chloe said when she answered your door wearing one of your t-shirts.”
     
    I had to stop myself from cursing out loud; I took several deep breaths before I could say anything.
     
    “When?” I asked barely being able to get that out.
     
    “About 5 months after you left. I was at a tattoo convention with Cris; he was starting the shop at that point, and had asked me to come with him to help.”
     
    “You were pregnant then?” I asked and she nodded. “So where did Chloe say I was?” I asked.
     
    “She said you were off playing in some club, I can’t remember which one.  She told me I was making a fool out of myself with you, that you knew about the baby and didn’t care, that you two would laugh at my voice mails and emails, pitying the young naïve teenager.  After she was done ranting at me, I left went back to the hotel where we were staying and left the next morning. I tried calling one more time and that’s when she answered and told me you had asked her to marry her, the same night I had been at your apartment.  I didn’t know what to do or think, you seemed to have had moved on with your life, so I decided to do the same with mine.”
     
    I looked at her beautiful pixie-like face and could see the sheen of tears over her eyes, being Devi, she blinked them away; she was never one to let someone see her cry.  I thought about the night she must have shown up at my apartment, it must have been the same night I found Chloe in my apartment.  Our manager had scheduled us a last minute show in a dive in West Hollywood, when we got there ready to play we were jacked around all night, never ended up actually playing the set we were supposed to.  I finally made it home around 4am pissed and exhausted from what had happened at the club and I found Chloe in my bed wearing my New York Dolls t-shirt and come to find out nothing else.  Thinking of how Devi would of felt seeing Chloe in the t-shirt, she had searched  for me, and paid a lot more than she should have, made me see red.  Then I remembered a few days later my cell disappeared and I couldn’t find it, and had it replaced with a new one with a new number so Chloe wouldn’t have it.  I always thought she taken it, and I guess she had, then something Devi said made me snap out of my revelry.
     
    “You said you left voice mails and sent emails, Dev I never got them, you have to believe me. The only thing I can think of is that bitch must have gotten ahold of them somehow and deleted them before I saw them.  Baby, if I would have known, I would have come home. I wouldn’t have left you here to do this by yourself, and I never would have done those things Chloe had said I did.  How could you of believed her that I would have laughed at you, pitied you, not care about the fact you were having