My Misery Muse by Brei Betzold Read Free Book Online

to marry him, what did she say?  Why didn’t she tell me she was engaged?  Not knowing what else to do I left the office and headed back to the shop to wait for Devi to get done with her client.
     

Chapter Eight
    I watched Cris head back to the office after Drake left, and I knew nothing good could come from it. A few minutes later Seth came out looking pissed as hell.  He went over to talk to Max and I went back to work finishing the tat I was working on. Nothing I could do about it now, I had work to get done.  After I finished and had the guy all taped up with after care instructions and some samples of creams, I walked over to where Vic, Max and Seth were standing around talking.
     
    “Hey, you ready to go?” I asked Seth.
     
    “Yea, let’s go,” he said. “See you guys later.”
     
    He didn’t say another word; just put his hand on my lower back guiding me out of the shop and to his car.  I got into his old Chevelle—man this car brought back a lot of memories—he started the car and Sevendust’s “Bitch” started blaring from the speakers, we left still not talking the entire way to the café.  We got to the café and sat outside on the outdoor patio, watching the cars speed down central expressway.  His not talking was starting to really unnerve me, I had an idea on what he and Cris had talked about, but I wasn’t sure on how to bring it up.
     
    “So you and Cris, huh?” he said.
     
    I closed my eyes cursing my best friend, why did he have to do this to me?  Why did he have to tell him instead of letting me explain it to Seth? But then again I knew why, he wanted Seth to think more was going on between us than what actually was.
     
    “He’s been trying, I keep putting him off.”
     
    “Why?” he asked.
     
    I was surprised at this, why had I been putting off Cris, well I knew it was because I still loved Seth, but I wasn’t going to let him know this.
     
    “I dont love Cris like that,” I said. “He says he doesn’t care about that, that he loves me enough for both of us, but I don’t think I could marry someone I don’t love.”
     
    He looked to be thinking over my answer but I couldn’t tell what he was thinking.  Was he happy about me not being involved with Cris? Did he pity me like Chloe had said he did because I couldn’t get over him?
     
    “So what did you want to talk about Devi?” he asked.
     
    I guess he didn’t want to talk about Cris anymore, not that I blamed him, I didn’t really want to either.
     
    “I thought it would be good for us to clear the air, become friends again. It would make things easier when we try to come to terms about Jaks.”
     
    Our waitress came up at that point to take our orders; I ordered a coffee and my favorite spinach crepes.  After she got Seth’s order and walked off, I looked at him and still couldn’t get a read on what he was thinking.
     
    “I want you to believe me that I did try and tell you. I tried for six months, but at some point I had to figure out how to do this on my own, I had to make plans to get my life back together.  So I stopped trying to contact you, I had a baby to take care of.”
     
    “I understand Devi.  I know last night I was pissed, and while I am still upset at not knowing, I understand why you didn’t keep seeking me out,” he said. “But now that I know, I’m not going away; I will have a part in his life Devi.”
     
    “Okay,” I said, “I think he would like that.”
     
    “So how are we going to do that Devi, any ideas, I will of course start paying child support.  I want to make sure he has everything he needs.”
     
    “I make enough to make sure he’s taken care of Seth, I’ve been doing it for over 2 years now without your money, and we don’t need it now,” I spit out.
     
    “I didn’t mean to make you mad Devi, or try and make it sound like you don’t take care of him, I just want to help and I need to help. Please let me, I’ve missed so much already, but