always felt.
Take notes, I tell Ellis.
Like what?
Feelings, man. Impressions.
Bollocks. Its been two years, he whines.
Do it, says Rudkin.
I cant stop it:
Im coming up the hill, swaying, bags in my hand. Plastic bags, carrier bags, Tesco bags .
We get to the garage and Frankie tries the door.
It opens.
Im freezing.
Frankie lights a cig and stands out in the road.
I step inside.
Black, bloody, bleak.
Full of flies, fat fucking flies.
Ellis and Rudkin follow.
The room has the air of the sea bed, the weight of an evil ocean hanging over our heads.
Rudkin is swallowing hard.
I struggle.
Used to stare out the window and bark at the trains .
Ive felt this before, but not often: Wakefield, December 74.
Theresa Campbell, Joan Richards, and Marie Watts.
Today on the Moors.
Too often.
The sweet smell of perfumed soap, of cider, of Durex .
The headache is intense, blinding.
Theres a bench, table, wooden crates, bottles, thousands of bottles, newspapers, scraps of this and that, blankets, odd bits of clothing.
They did go through this, yeah? says Ellis.
Mmm, mumbles Rudkin.
Trains pass, dogs bark.
I can taste blood.
Ive slipped on to my knees and hes come out of me. Now hes angry. I try to turn but hes got me by my hair, punching me casually, once, twice, and Im telling him theres no need for that, scrambling to give him his money back, and then hes got it up my arse, but Im thinking at least itll be over then, and hes back kissing my shoulders, pulling my black bra off, smiling at this fat cows flabby arms, and taking a big, big bite out of the underside of my left tit, and I cant not scream and I know I shouldnt have because now hes going to have to shut me up and Im crying because I know its over, that theyve found me, that this is how it ends, that Ill never see my daughters again, not now, not ever .
I look up. Ellis is staring at me.
This is how it ends .
Rudkin has a pair of plastic gloves on, pulling a dirt-caked carrier bag out from under the bench.
Tescos.
He looks at me.
I squat down beside him.
He opens it up.
Porn mags, old and used.
He closes the bag and slings it back under the bench.
Enough? he says.
Not now, not ever .
I nod and we go back out into the light.
Frankie lights another cig and says, Lunch?
Staring into dark pints, thinking worse thoughts, fucked if theres anything I can do about it.
Frankie brings over the Ploughmans, all withered and bleached.
Fucks that? says Rudkin, getting up off his stool and going back to the bar.
Ellis raises his glass. Cheers.
Rudkin comes back and tips a whisky into the top of his pint and sits back down. He smiles at Ellis, Impressions?
Ellis grins back, reading Rudkin wrong, Do I look like Dick fucking Emery?
Yeah, and youre about as much fucking use. Detective Inspector Rudkins stopped smiling. He turns to me. Teach him something, Bob?
Im with you. Different bloke.
Why?
She was attacked indoors. Raped. Sodomised. She did receive substantial head injuries from a blunt instrument, however none were fatal or immobilising.
Frankies got his head to one side. Meaning?
The killer or killers of Theresa Campbell and Joan Richards attacked them out in the open with one blow to the back of their heads. They were either dead or comatose before they hit the ground. Early indications are that the same is true of the latest one, Marie Watts.
And it couldnt be the same bloke over here using a different m.o.?
It doesnt really add up. If anything, the resistance, the struggle, was what kept him going.
Turned him on? asks Ellis.
Yeah. Hell have raped before, probably since.
So why kill her?
Ive only one answer:
Because he could.
Rudkin wipes ale from his face. What about the placing of the boot and the coat?
Similar.
Similar how? repeats Frankie.
Ellis is about to chime up, but Rudkin cuts him off dead,
Stop in the Name of Pants!