hard my voice cracks. I cry for my father like my life depends on it. Because it does. Iâm only sixteen! My eyes roam, looking for my dad. Hoping this is the one time heâll notice me. Put me before anything else. Before whatever work he does here.
Through my panic I find him, almost hidden behind the movements of the security guards. Is this the last time Iâll ever see him?
Dadâs eyes close tight and my breath catches at the sound of his voice.
âSecretary Morgan, you canât take her away. Sheâs my daughter.â
âI realize this, David. Which makes it difficult, but she canât have special privileges because her father works here. Do you know how many SEAD employees have children?â
âShe overheard my conversation with you when I was in my home office.â My father gestures to the Secretary. Aunt Stephanie gasps.
âDavid,â she scolds.
âItâs my fault.â Dad shrugs. âI should be the one punished, not her. I told her she had to keep quiet, not to go looking.â His eyes meet mine. Iâve never been so sorry in my life. I donât even know why this is such a big deal, but it is. That much I understand.
âIâm so sorry, Dad.â
The Secretary clears his throat. âThatâs unfortunate, but she knows too much.â
âWe all know too much.â My aunt takes a step forward, arms on hips. A flitter of hope rises in my belly.
âBut you work here. You sign a nondisclosure agreement that says you sacrifice your freedom if you divulge anything. Locked in maximum security forever,â the Secretary says in a tone that portrays his desire for this to be over.
âLyra does too,â Dad explains in a calm voice, looking everywhere in the room but at the Secretary. âSheâs our newest intern.â
âAs of when?â
My fatherâs eyes fly up at Morganâs question.
âRight now.â Dadâs gaze meets mine and he takes in a big breath. âOr I quit.â
Chapter Eight
âDo they hurt?â Dad asks, gesturing to the cuts and bruises around my wrists, the ones I keep mindlessly circling as I pretend to watch TV.
âA little,â I mumble and look up at him sitting on the couch. âMy eye is worse.â That security guard had a really strong fist.
We didnât talk the whole way home. Dad announced he was taking a half-day, as if he had a cold he was going to try to get over. But before we left the building he rushed me to HR to sign the paperwork to be SEADâs newest intern.
As I signed on the dotted line my father explained that only those who worked for SEAD, or within the government, could know the details about the projects. The contract bound the employee to secrecy and sentenced you to life in prison if that confidentiality was broken. It was the only way to save me from what I had done.
Considering my dream was to work there someday, youâd think Iâd be more excited.
To be completely honest, Iâm surprised it worked.
My dad threatening to quit surprised everyone, really. Dad assured me they could never continue his projects without him. He was too valuable.
âIâm really sorry, Dad,â the words tumble out and fresh tears form in my eyes. âIâm really sorry.â
âCome here, kiddo.â He gestures to the spot on the couch and I curl into his shoulder, rest my hand on his stomach. I havenât been here since⦠God, Iâm not sure Iâve ever been here, tucked into his side. I give him a squeeze, which gets him talking again.
âAfter you overheard my conversation with the Secretary that night, I knew we were in trouble.â Heâs silent for a few seconds and then says, âI knew you wouldnât listen.â
The knife of guilt gets pushed deeper.
âI just had to know why you were soâ¦scared,â I say into his stomach.
âI was scared because I saw the look