conscious when it was done.â
âWhat kind of person brands a human being?â
âWhat kind of person brands any living being?â
âI donât mean to badmouth your friend or his memory, but odds are he was into some bad shit or pissed off the wrong kind of folks. People donât get shot in the head on the street for no reason. You know that. Could it be a random thing? Sure, itâs possible. But how often does that really happen?â
âMaybe it was a mistake.â Joel shrugged. âShooter got the wrong guy.â
âThatâs the problemâyou donât know much of anything at this point.â
âNo, I donât. I have no idea what the hell Iâm walking into.â
âThatâs never wise, my friend.â
âSometimes itâs necessary. Iâm guessing it wonât amount to much.â
âGuessing or hoping?â
âLittle of both. Either way, Iâve been out of the game a long time, Billy.â
âYouâre still a reporter. Itâs not like youâre selling furniture or something.â
Joel stared at him. âMy last story was about the school lunch program and how pizza is still being featured. Hard-hitting investigative journalism at its best. I donât want to come off arrogant or anything, but Iâm thinking Pulitzer.â
âOnce a reporter, always a reporter.â
âI thought that was priests.â
âFine. Them too.â
âMy point is the last real investigative work I did was twenty years ago, and I havenât stepped foot in that part of Massachusetts in all that time. My old stomping grounds probably donât even exist anymore, and any connections I had back then are likely long gone. So I figure I knock the rust off as best I can, go poke around a little, see if I can come up with anything or make some sense of things. If I come up emptyâwhich is probably exactly whatâll happenâI come home none the worse for wear and able to live with myself because at least Iâll know I gave it an honest shot.â
Billy smoked his cigarette a while, thinking. âI realize we didnât know each other back when all that other stuff went down and you had those problems, but I know enough to realize thatâs not something you need to get anywhere near again.â
âYou think I donât know that?â
Flashes of memories blinked before Joelâs eyes. Photos of the Catholic churchâ¦the altar on which Cindy Mello had been slaughtered and sacrificedâ¦the symbols and sacrilegious writings in her blood and fecal matter smeared across the walls and floorsâ¦the desecrationâ¦the madness and evil falling through his mind like black rainâ¦
He forced them away. It had been years since such things had tormented him or come to him so vividly.
âItâs not like I didnât read your book,â Billy said. âI do know something about what happened andââ
âIt was a long time ago.â
âBut it also nearly killed you. You almost didnât recover.â
He and Billy had never really talked in-depth about those days, and Joel had no intention of starting now. âIt was a completely different time, a different case and an entirely different situation. This has nothing to do with that sort of thing.â
âThat you know of.â
âLook, man, I appreciate your concern, okay? But Iâm fine, and Iâll be fine.â
âYouâve got a good life here, Joel. A damn fine woman, a nice home, a badass best friend.â He grinned, then grew serious again. âDonât fuck it up. Some people would kill for what you have. And by some people I mean me.â
Joel gave a quiet, obligatory laugh, but both he and Billy knew there really wasnât anything funny about any of this. As an awkward silence fell over them, a chilly but gentle breeze slipped through the trees at the edge of the