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their best friend – Tatum felt like a spaniel about half the time. But he loved her. Sanders loving anybody was shocking enough, but her ..., she didn't know what to do with that information.
    Except feel like the goddamn devil – I am completely unworthy of him.
    “Sanders,” she breathed. “I think I hate myself.”
    “No you don't. You're just confused. Talk to him, talk to Mr. Hollingsworth,” he urged. She shook her head.
    “I can't. I just ..., I feel like this is something I need to do. It's all I think about. Sometimes, I stay awake all night, because I can't stop thinking about ruining things for everyone,” she whispered, glancing at the doorway. Jameson was somewhere in the house.
    “You're being overdramatic. Maybe you should see a therapist,” Sanders suggested. She snorted.
    “Fuck that.”
    “What Jameson did was wrong, but he has apologized. You claim to have forgiven him, but you haven't. If you are going to keep holding it against him, then I personally feel you should not be with him. What Mr. Hollingsworth did was wrong, he should not have kept his relationship a secret – he should have discussed his feelings with you before anything started. But it is not the end of the world. For your sake, for everyone's sake, just talk to people,” he urged.
    She stared at the counter top. Of course she should talk to everyone else. The thought ran through her brain a million times. Every time Tate was with Jameson, it was on the tip of her tongue. If anyone would understand an uncontrollable urge to hurt people, it would be Jameson. But she couldn't talk to him – she wanted to hurt him, too.
    She wanted blood.
    “I get it. I really do. And I'll snap out of it, I promise. No more sneaking Ang into the house, no more dirty tricks while you guys are gone,” she promised. She hated lying to Sanders, so she kept her options open without being specific. He sighed.
    “I honestly think you'd -,” he started to say, but then Jameson walked into the room.
    “Think she'd what, Sanders?” he asked, moving to stand between them. Tate shrugged and put the brownie spoon in her mouth.
    “I think if she keeps eating sweets the way she has been, her weight is going to balloon out of control,” Sanders replied, then marched out of the room. Tate stared after him.
    Was that ..., did he just ..., was that a dig!? Did Sanders just snap at me, in Sanders-speak!? Good for you, Sandy.
    “Am I getting fat!?” she exclaimed, turning to look down at her ass.
    No matter what was going on in her life, she always tried to make it a point to exercise, in some fashion, at least twice a week. In Spain, she had jogged up and down the marina. In Weston, she used a small gym that Jameson had put into a spare room. She couldn't be getting fat! She turned in a circle, trying to judge.
    “Your ass is perfect, he's being rude. You've upset him. What were guys talking about?” Jameson asked, leaning against the island.
    “Ang,” she replied. Jameson hung his head.
    “Fuck, I just cannot get away from that guy.”
    “You're the one who blabbed all of our pillow talk to Sandy. Do you throw in the dirty stuff, too?” Tate asked, licking the spoon clean.
    “Only if he's been very good. Let's get out of here,” Jameson suddenly said.
    “But I just put brownies in,” Tate told him, gesturing to the oven. He moved to stand in front of her and ran his finger along the inside of the bowl she'd used to make the batter.
    “So. Set a timer, Sanders will take them out. Let's go get lunch,” he suggested, licking his finger. She followed the movement with her eyes and he smiled.
    “You take him for granted,” she warned him. He barked out a laugh.
    “You are always so wrong. C'mon, fat ass , let's go,” he urged, roughly squeezing her butt before walking past her.
    “I am not -,” she started to argue when he hooked a finger into her apron and yanked her backwards.
    “ I wasn't asking, Tate. ”
    They went to lunch in Weston,