were looking for me.â
Kyle stops but doesnât let go of me, and I falter. âThose guys went after you.â
âI know.â
âBut you think theyâre after someone else?â
I squeeze my eyes shut, straining for another memory, but one doesnât show up on demand. Thatâs wrong too. I feel like there used to be a door in the back of my mind, one I could open at will. From behind it, I could retrieve whatever I needed whenever I needed it. But now itâs dark behind the door, and everythingâs fallen. The memories I pull from there are jumbled and senseless. I trip over facts that were once neatly stored.
âI told youâI donât know. I just have this sense that Iâm in danger.â And someone else was in danger too. Kyle? Is that why heâs with me, or is it totally unrelated?
Danger. Read.
I chase the unrelated words around in my head. Read what? Something in my backpack? I rifled through it earlier and didnât see an e-sheet or anything.
Kyleâs face is pained. No doubt Iâm scaring him. And why not? Iâm scaring me. This is probably a good reason not to tell him more than I already have. That, and he clearly wasnât supposed to know what I was doing at RTC.
Unfortunate, because maybe if he had known, he could fill me in on the stuff Iâm missing.
He starts moving again, though now heâs scanning the surroundings like I am. âThat cutâyou must have hit your head. I think you need help.â
Stay away from doctors. That thought triggers my paranoia so that my muscles clench from shoulders to feet. Why do I hate doctors?
I shake my head at my Kyle. âNo, this is helping. My memories are coming back. What did I tell you? Before this happened, I mean.â
The sun retreats behind a cloud, and the temperature drops several degrees without its light. Our feet crunch on old salt thatâs staining the path.
Kyle zips his jacket higher as the wind picks up. âLast night you said you wanted to get away from campus for a while. Honestly, you seemed disturbed about something, but like you were trying to hide it.â
âBut I didnât say anything else?â
He laughs once. âNo, but Iâm used to it. Youâre the only person Iâve ever met more tight-lipped than me. So when you insisted that we had to go today, I figured why not. You really donât remember any of this?â He pauses in front of me, so close our chests touch. His breath passes over me in white clouds, and his bottom lip sticks out in this adorable way.
Despite everything, Iâm struck by the urge to kiss him. To discover if his lips are as soft as they look. Have I ever done it? I canât even remember. How sad.
I chew my lip to keep it from doing something stupid. âSomething happened in the bathroom. I blacked out. Everything before that isâ¦â Gone, but I donât want to admit it. Itâs too scary. âIs wrong. Hazy.â
âThat doesnât sound good.â Kyle winces. âUnderstatementsâIâve got âem.â
I smile but immediately catch the shape of several dark figures moving in my peripheral vision. My smile vanishes.
I twist left as my heartbeat spikes, but the figures are only some random people hoofing it in the opposite direction. Still, I donât like it. I should be more alert. Kyle is distracting me, which, given what little I remember, is apparently normal.
Heâs also checking out the group, or checking out me checking them out. âRecognize them?â
âNo, but letâs move. Iâm getting cold standing here.â
âYeah, your cheeks are all pink.â He presses a cold hand against my face. âThereâs a coffee shop down by the Garden. Maybe we can get some coffee that we have time to drink and some breakfast we have time to eat?â
âSounds good.â
We walk in silence another minute. Iâve