folded up the newspapers and put them out near the incinerator. I wasnât going to France and I knew it. Not on this sixty grand, anyway.
âWhoâs there?â Inge called timidly from behind the paint-flecked door to her apartment.
âItâs Ann,â I responded.
It was dark inside. She closed the door behind me and switched on a lamp.
Inge stood there, blinking every now and again, waiting for me to speak.
âI have something to give you,â I said finally.
She cocked her head to the left, but remained silent. Bruno ambled over and took his place at her side.
I reached into my overalls and came out with four of the rolls. âHere.â
I pressed them into her hands, swatting away the dogâs curious nose.
âWhat is it?â
âItâs money. From Sig. He told me it should go to you if anything ever happened to him. Thereâs â¦â I faltered there, postponing the absurd sentence I was about to pronounce. âThereâs twenty thousand dollars there, Inge.â
âTwenty thousand.â She repeated the words as if I were talking about a breakfast cereal.
âThatâs right. Itâs not a trick. Itâs not a joke. Just take it and live your life.â
Bruno growled from way down in his chest.
âI told Sig I didnât know if weâd make the rent next month,â she said distractedly. âBut how did youââ
I ran out of there.
In what had to be the boldest act of my life, out of high compassion and no sense, I had just given away twenty thousand dollars that didnât belong to meâjust like thatâwithout thinking.
Which left forty.
So, who was going to be Robin Hoodâs next have-not?
The old woman in Harlem who rescued the babies with AIDS was dead now, but her work continued. Someone else was operating the charity called Hale House. Perhaps Iâd give them something.
What about the United Negro College Fund? What about a yearly stipend for some deserving music student at one of the city colleges?
And there was still that large breasted, half bald black girl from Queens who blew tenor on street cornersâthe one who was so fond of Provence and triple milled soaps. The one who needed to have her head examined at the earliest possible opportunity.
No, none of these, deserving as they might be. It was time for me to come to my senses.
The moneyâwhat was left of itâwas going where it should have gone five minutes after Iâd found it. God help me, I was going to have to turn it over to Leman Sweet.
CHAPTER 5
Little rootie toot
The kitchen in the house where I grew up is as pure with light as a day in St. Paul de Vence. And it is invariably spotless. There is an explanation for this: Mom canât cook.
My mother is a child of convenience foods. No homemade cornbread or peach cobbler ever drew breath in that kitchen. We were strictly Colonel Sanders and Mrs. Paul; spinach pie at the Greeks on Metropolitan Avenue, corned beef at the deli in Sunnyside; Sunday trips in to Manhattan for the biscuits at Sylviaâs in Harlem or, on a really special occasion, dinner in the theater district before some musical my father was taking us to.
It had nothing to do with my motherâs lousy cooking, but Daddy left her about eight years ago. He is a department head at one of those high schools for gifted assholes, and he fell in love with a colleagueâa young white teacher nearly half his age. The feeling, apparently, was mutual and so they were wed. Like something out of the Greeks, my mother has not spoken his name since. Mom is going on fifty-five. She is still pretty. I donât look a thing like her.
I placed a roll of bills in the pocket of her mauve shirtwaist with a simple âHappy birthday, Mom.â
âNanette, what is this?â
âItâs for you, Mom. Your birthday present.â
âNanette, you already gave me a birthday presentâthree months