ago.â
âRight. That was part one. This is part two.â
She removed the rubber band from the roll and counted the bills. âNanette, this is five thousand dollars.â
âYes maâam, I know.â
âWhere did this come from?â
âFrom NYU. Itâs a bonus.â
âBonus for what?â
âWell, not exactly a bonus. Itâs more like a prize. For some, uh, books that I translated.â
âWell, thatâs just wonderful. But what would I look like taking your whole fee for that work? Youâre not supporting me, Nanette.â
âItâs not my whole fee. Itâs only half. And I wanted to give it to you now because Iâll probably forget your next six birthdays. Itâs a kind of insurance. And besides, havenât you been talking about repainting the house or something for months now?â
âI want aluminum siding, I said. As if you were listening.â
âWell, thatâs what I mean. Itâs yours.â
In the end she did take the money. After pinning me to the wall with a couple of those patented Mom looks. You know, those looks that can mean anything from whoâs going to be wearing pajamas at this pajama party? to prison is probably too good for you . I had seen the full panoply of her looks and now, after nearly thirty years, could all but ignore them.
Mom kissed me and put the bills back in her pocket.
She keeps saying that one day sheâll take a vacation someplace niceâmaybe even go to Europe. But she never will. She keeps promising to visit me and see my apartment, too, at least to meet me midtown for lunch. But I donât count on that one either. I donât think she even remembers the last time she was in Manhattan.
Mom told me all about aluminum siding. We had tea, Liptonâs, which is very hard to get wrong.
She asked after Aubrey, and inquired whether she still had âthat beautiful mink jacket that she saved up forâ out of her earnings as a restaurant hostess. I knew that her suspicions about what Aubrey really did for a living were probably much worse than the reality. A go go dancer isnât a whore, I wanted to tell her. But it was a little late for that. See, the old folks do have a pointâonce you tell a lie, you have to go on lying; it just works that way.
A few minutes before it was time for me to go, I went into my old room and called Aubrey. I had to confirm the appointment weâd made. I needed someone there with me when I faced Leman Sweet, and Aubrey had agreed to accompany me; to watch my back, so to speak, since I feared Detective Sweet might get physical again when I told him what Iâd done. When I told him even half of what Iâd done.
âSo ⦠you really gone do it, huh Nan?â Aubrey asked wearily.
âYeah, I really am.â
âYou be better off taking Walter back.â
We had taken over a corner of the immense lobby of her apartment building and fashioned an island of sofas and glass tables and easy chairs. I took a cigarette from Aubreyâs pack. As I was striking the match I noticed Leman Sweet swing in through the plate glass doors. As he barrelled along, he was being dogged by an irate doorman who had not been responded to in the manner to which he was accustomed. Sweet finally wheeled on the man and flipped open his badge. The doorman removed his hat and wiped his forehead.
â Thatâs him?â Aubrey stage whispered to me.
âOh yeah. That is most definitely him.â
âHe doesnât look that mean.â
She was right.
It was Leman Sweet, all right, but not the same one who had cursed and assaulted me in my own home. He still had the Fu Manchu moustache but he was now dressed in a dark business suit. High polished Florsheims. Good Presbyterian tie. Good haircut. The quietly competent look. Best of all, he wasnât carrying a musical instrument that might end up smashed to bits against the nearest
Dorothy Calimeris, Sondi Bruner