appreciate you trusting me enough to tell me about this. And I don’t blame you for not wanting to tell me about your family. This is… a scary and strange situation to be in.”
“It is. I face danger every day with the coffee alone. Either I’m poisoned or burned.”
He laughed, “Coffee is my weapon of choice.”
“It’s pretty deadly, I’d say.”
He kept laughing, his eyes smiling as they looked into mine. Slowly, he leaned forward, getting ever closer. I closed my eyes, waiting for him to kiss me. Suddenly, a knock came at the door, and his weight shifted to answer it. I frowned, leaning back into the couch and drinking the rest of my coffee. Christian greeted a group of men who entered. I stood and covered the coffee spot on my dress. The men all laughed with Christian, seeming to be already acquainted with him.
“Veronica, this is my tribe. We have some discussions we have to make, so do you mind giving us the space?” Christian asked, the men standing behind him and whispering amongst themselves.
“Of course,” I stood. “It’s nice to meet all of you.”
“It’s nice to meet you too, pretty lady,” one of them said, giving me a winning smile.
Christian gave a deep frown as the others chuckled. I gave them a slight smile and rushed to my room. Their voices rose from the living room, but it only sounded like a cacophony of sound. I laid back down on the bed and stared at the ceiling, fantasizing about what it would’ve been like if Christian’s tribe hadn’t knocked on the door. I imagine his lips will be soft and warm, and his embrace would be both protective and sexy.
I’m going to need a moment to let these fantasies go.
VII.
A door slammed downstairs, stirring me out of sleep. I looked around the room, noticing how dark it had become. I didn’t even realize I’d fallen asleep. I dreamt I was allowed to go outside, so I sat out there and watched people walk by. Some of them waved to me and I waved back to some as well. It was so boring, I felt like I was still awake the whole time.
My chest feels sticky. I should probably be a responsible human being and wash this off. I quietly escaped from my room to the bathroom - for some reason, I didn’t want him to hear me, as if I’m a magic person who never has to shower. Showering isn’t attractive, I guess (I don’t even know where I’m going with this.)
I stood under the hot water just letting the steam consume me. Mom used to say that the steam can clean out all the impurities in the body. That didn’t seem to work with cancer, but she kept believing it. She’d drag Kevin and I to saunas and say, “I’m feeling so much better. Don’t you guys?” Kevin would play along, but I usually would lay on the floor near the door to hope for cool air. Sometimes I’d hope for death; it came in a different way than expected.
I got out and dried myself off. I looked at myself in the steamed up mirror. The details of my figure looked clouded, but my shape could still be seen. Though I’m comfortable with myself now, part of the reason I never had sex was out of fear. I thought men would see me naked, laugh, and leave.
Suddenly, the door opened, and Christian stood there shirtless, both of us just staring at each other for a second. We both seemed frozen in place, though I did notice his eyes examine my body before he turned around and handed me a towel, shielding his eyes. His skin brightened to a dull red. I couldn’t help but examine his strong shoulders as well as the skin reddened.
“I’m sorry, I thought you were asleep,” he said. “I checked on you not that long ago and…”
“I snuck out of my room,” I replied, wrapping myself in the towel. “I wanted you to