Savory Deceits by Skye Heart Read Free Book Online Page B

you don't believe that. Just give him some time to get used to you again. You can’t expect him to just pick up where you two left off, as if nothing has ever happened.” I reasoned with her. Then, I stopped to adjudge her reaction. When she appeared to be more receptive, than defensive, I continued. “He probably needs time, Nai.” I said.
    “I know he does, but sometimes it’s good to hear those words you know, for reassurance. It breaks my heart that he won't tell me how he feels.” She said, resting her head on the back of the sofa. Then, I thought for a moment, before I spoke again.
                  “Maybe he doesn't feel safe with you yet.” I suggested. “Maybe his heart doesn't feel safe with you yet. I know when Tony cheated on me; it took me a while to get over it. I was hurt, and I think Chris still is.” I said, hoping to shed some light on the situation for her. After that, Naima reached for the ice cream again, and resumed her indulgence. We both sat there in silence for a while, sharing the spoon, and the half-melted tub of ice cream.
    “So, when's the last time you heard from Tony?” Naima asked me, breaking the silence.
    “About a week ago,” I answered.
    “How long before he comes back now?” She asked me.
    “Six weeks.” I said hopeful.
    “Oh, I bet somebody's anxious to see her husband again, huh?” She teased.
    “Yeah I am. I just miss being with him.” I said, resting my head against the sofa.
    “Ah, I bet that's not the only thing you miss.” Naima said, darting her eyes at me. I picked up a pillow, and hit her with it. Giggling, she caught the pillow between her hands. “What? Am I wrong?” She asked with a chuckle.
    “No you're not wrong, but that's none of your business.” I scolded playfully.
    “Yeah? Since when?” She asked. We both looked at each other, and then laughed again.
    “But seriously though, I think Tony wants to have a baby.” I told my sister.
    “Really?” She gasped. I nodded my head. “How do you know?” She asked me.
    “Well, he's been dropping less than inconspicuous hints to me about it, in his phone calls, and through his emails. Lately, he has been telling me how much he cannot wait to expand our family. And just the other day, his latest email was filled with suggestions of baby names,” then I stopped, and shook my head, “could he be more obvious?” I thought aloud.
    “Can you?” Naima asked.
    “What do you mean?” I got defensive.
    “Look, don't get me wrong, I understand how you feel about this whole baby thing; how you want to wait and all, but you have to understand where he's coming from sis. You have been married for over four years now. I mean, what are you trying to do, go into retirement before you have children?” She said, rolling her eyes.
    “That's not funny Nai!” I scolded with a frown.
    “It wasn't supposed to be funny. I just don't see why you still want to wait. The man loves you girl. Why don't you want to have his baby? And do not give me that 'I want to finish school' bullshit, because I am not buying it.
    There are many pregnant mothers in school. There has to be some other reason as to why you’re disinclined about it.”
    Then, Naima crossed her arms, and waited.
    “Look, I’m only twenty-six. I am still young, and I have many goals that I want to accomplish first, before bringing a child into this world. It’s not that I don't want to, I'm just afraid to.” I admitted.
    “Why?” She asked. Now, it was my turn to fess up about my feelings.
    “I don't know. To tell you the truth, I don't think I ever got over that whole Ashleigh mess. Every time I think about it, I get upset all over again. I guess I don't quite feel secure enough with him yet; at least not enough to have a baby that is. I don't want to bring a child into this world without knowing for sure, whether or not its father and I, are going to be together forever.” I reasoned.
    “But sweetie, there's no way you can ever