walls. I looked under the bed. Nothing. Not even dust. I felt around under the mattress. Nothing. I stood and went to the closet. It was empty. I opened the bureau drawers. They were empty and lined with clean white paper. I went back and sat down on the kidâs bed again.
As soon as he was gone they had cleaned out his room. It was as if they had emptied the room of him. Tried to render it pre-Jared, as if they could return life to the time when they had moved here and it was mostly possibility. There was no vestige of him. There had been no pictures in the living room. None of the cheap garish cardboard-framed school photographs that every parent had of every kid. No team photographs. No musical instruments. No CDs. It was as if heâd never existed, as if heâd never lain on this bed in the darkness and thought about sex or eternity or the American League. As if there had been no imaginary passions, no fantasized moments of derring-do, no terrifying moments of imagination when lifeâs limitations nearly overwhelmed him. No graphic sexual conquests of women older than himself.
The room was empty and neutral and impenetrable. The only story it told me was that it had no story to tell. I got up and very carefully smoothed out the quilt where I had sat. I looked out the window. From here, I could see my parked car. I couldnât see clearly from here, but Pearl might have been sitting in the driverâs seat. It was darker now than it had been,and rain began to spat disinterestedly against the window. I wondered if Jared had had a dog. I looked at the neat, color-coordinated, blank room upstairs in the neat, color-coordinated, blank house.
No. He didnât have a dog.
14
I WAS WALKING ACROSS the parking lot with Alex Taglio, toward the main entrance of the Bethel County Jail.
âWhat good does it do my guy to talk with you?â Taglio said.
âWhat harm?â I said.
âSay somehow, crazy as it is, you convince people that Clark isnât guilty,â Taglio said. âMy guy already rolled on him. Where would that leave us?â
âMaybe if heâs innocent, he shouldnât be rolled on,â I said.
âHe is not innocent,â Taglio said. âI said what if you convince people.â
âIf heâs guilty, I donât want to get him off,â I said.
âOh, fuck,â Taglio said, âI donât know what Iâm arguing about. Rita already talked me into it.â
âSexual favors?â I said.
âI wish,â Taglio said. âYou ever?â
I shook my head.
âMarried?â
âSort of,â I said.
âSort of?â
âYou?â I said.
âMary Lou Monaghan,â he said. âFive kids. She caught me fooling around, sheâd cut off my wanker.â
We went into the jail.
They got us seated, as far as I could tell, in the same interview room where Iâd talked with Jared. When the guards brought Wendell in, they put him in the same chair. Might have been the same guards.
âFirst of all, Wendell,â Taglio said, âMr. Spenserâs got no legal authority here. You donât have to talk with him if you donât want to.â
âLike I got something else to do?â Wendell said.
He was a big, robust kid with pink cheeks and thick lips and smallish eyes. He had a white-blond crew cut. And he seemed to swagger even sitting down.
âHe asks you something you donât like, you donât have to answer,â Taglio says. âHe asks you something and I tell you not to answer, you donât answer. Unnerstand.â
âSure, you bet, Alex. I do just what you say and every-thingâll be really fucking swell,â the kid said.
Taglio sat back and let his face go neutral.
âI want to talk with you about Jared Clark,â I said.
âNo shit,â Wendell said.
âWhich one of you got the guns?â I said.
âMan, I told everybody already. I