though I donât mind pretending for fun.
Itâs another of the reasons why we have to go to City Island and meet new people. Peggy says sheâs got no more stories left and sheâs told us them all. Sheâs all storied out. She says thereâs plenty more out there, but she doesnât know or canât remember them no more. Or rather â any more. Iâve got to remember that. Itâs grammar. Weâre not supposed to say
no more
no more. Weâve got to say
any more
from now on.
Peggy says thereâs books out there like youâll never see the end of. She says thereâs so many that no one could ever read them all, not even if they made it their lifeâs work and dedication. Seems hard to imagine to me. I canât even picture that many books, not like walls and walls of them, going on forever, but Peggy says theyâve got books in City Island like fish in the sky.
And then thereâs boys. Peggy says theyâve got almost as many boys as books and you could never get to the end of all of them either. She says itâs time I met some, but I donât know. I mean, Martinâs a boy and so what? But Peggy says a boyâs not like a brother. She says a boy whoâs not a brother is a completely separate thing and an entirely different kettle of fish. So I had to ask her what a kettle of fish was, and why youâd be cooking fish in a kettle. But she said it was just an expression, and that was all the kind of thing weâd get the hang of once we arrived at City Island.
Iâm just hoping all this education is going to be one bit as marvellous as Peggyâs making out it is. Iâve been disappointed before. She said that eating sky-oysters was a real treat when you can get them. But when we did find them, I thought they were disgusting and tasted like slime with extra slime added. So I hope that finally going to school isnât going to be like that.
The expression is always
finally
going to school with Peggy. Other kids, I reckon, just go to school. But not us, we
finally
go to school, like weâre the last to arrive or something.
Anyway, I just hope sheâs right and that it is going to be something special and weâre not going all this way for nothing. Though I am interested in seeing what all the fuss over boys is about. Not that Iâm fussed or making a fuss. Itâs Peggy whoâs gone on about them. She just says we gotta go out into the world and grow up normal. She says growing up on our ownsome with a batty old woman â which is what she calls herself and weâve ended up stopping arguing and contradicting with her as she seems kind of proud of being batty, to say the truth â but she says that growing up with a batty old woman like her isnât good for two kids. She says itâs all right when youâre little but that we arenât so little any more, especially me. She says (when heâs out of hearing distance) that maybe Martin still is a little bit little but that Iâm not and that I am growing up apace.
Thatâs the kind of word she uses sometimes. I like that expression, that you are growing up
apace
. It just means quick but it somehow sounds better. Peggy says thereâs all kinds of words like that, ones that are plain and simple, and other ones that have poetry in them.
Anyhow, Martin doesnât really remember. Not like I do. Itâs all buried deep down in the underground for him; he was so young and small when our parents were lost. But when you lose your mum and dad, itâs like the ground has gone and youâre falling, falling, falling, all the way down into the sun. And plenty of times that was what I wished would happen and it would be the better and the easier way. I even said so to Peggy, when she found me crying once, that sometimes life feels so bad that youâd rather not live it, and you miss people so much youâd rather be with them than go on
Sherrilyn Kenyon, Dianna Love, Laura Griffin, Cindy Gerard