chest, staring down at his closest friend and feeling â Cassie knew â helpless. And if there was one thing he wasnât, it was that. He could cope with anything but that.
Cassie ordered briskly â and too much â at the Starbucks counter as Suzy and Velvet bagged the leather sofas in the far corner, the two of them engrossed in a clapping game. She set down the tray of lattes, foamy milk for Velvet, croissants, pain au chocolat, pain au raisin, two muffins (double-chocolate and a âbreakfastâ blueberry one), fruit salad and a muesli-yoghurt pot.
Suzy arched her eyebrows.
âYou need to keep your strength up,â Cassie said weakly, before Suzy could get a word out.
âClearly.â Suzy reached forward and handed the fruit salad to Velvet, who instantly started sucking on a slice of mango and within seconds set off a bright yellow river of juice running down her chin.
Cassie handed over a napkin, before grabbing the double-chocolate muffin and peeling back the case, slicing it in half and handing it over to Suzy on a plate. Suzy was famous for her sweet tooth, but she just looked down at it like it was made of chipboard.
âSuze, you have to eat,â Cassie scolded, bringing her chair closer.
âI know. And I will.â She set the plate back down on the table. âI just need to . . .â She inhaled deeply. âTake a minute. Everything happened so quickly yesterday â the train pulling away as Arch fell, being trapped until the next stop . . . It was like being in one of those dreams where you canât run, canât throw a punch . . . you know?â Her head dropped down, her legs shaking.
Cassie squeezed her knee, remembering it all too clearly: Suzyâs screams, the way sheâd pounded at the windows so hard Cassie had thought they would shatter, how Henry had had to hold her back from pulling the emergency stop as she wrestled with him, reaching for the red handle.
âI keep thinking Iâm dreaming. Last night, when I was lying in that bed and all I could hear were these
machines
, keeping everyone alive, keeping Arch alive . . . ! I mean, how is it even possible that this is happening? Yesterday I had to kick him out of bed for snoring like a train, and now heâs in here.â
âYouâre in shock yourself, Suze.â
Suzyâs eyes lifted to hers and a long moment passed between them. âWhat will I do if he doesnât . . . ?â She couldnât articulate the thought, as though to give it voice were to give it life, as though the words would be comprehensible to Velvet even if she werenât involved in a suck-to-the-death on an orange segment. âNo one else would put up with me the way he does, as youâre always telling me,â she muttered with a wry, hollow laugh.
âWell, itâs true. Youâre a nightmare â far too bossy and always right. Which is why Arch
is
going to survive this.â Cassie smiled kindly. âThereâs no way heâll leave you and Velvet. Thereâs not a man on this planet who has got more to fight for than him. You two are his world.â
Tears began to fall from Suzyâs eyes again, her lips drawn thin as she struggled for self-control. âGod, the irony. Just when you think things canât get any worse, they go and do.â She shook her head. âI thought the past few months had been so hard on us â Archieâs barely been around, and Iâve been a snappy cow, knowing I should have been doing more than I was but not wanting to burst my bubble with Veevs. I thought
that
was our hard-luck story, you know? A piffling little bonus was our karmic retribution for . . . whatever. But what does any of it matter now heâs lying in a bed up there on a ventilator? Who gives a stuffed cow about some job? He always hated it anyway. Said the blokes on his desk were losers whoââ
Cassie interrupted her with another