the disgusting scuttling memories before they escaped again. That was how it felt.
My brain filed the returning memories, like the lawyer I was, defining in detail my relationships with everyone around me, and the love and obligations that bound us all together. Hysteria rocked my body, memories burst like the hot gush of saliva before vomit, and the first thing I recalled was brutally simple, all the hatred built to a screech, and at its highest pitch rose one word â
Oscar
.
CONDITION 2
HYPERMNESIA*
* Vivid recall of the past.
TERMS & CONDITIONS OF KNOWLEDGE
Only after you achieve ultimate knowledge do you gain the final wisdom â that ignorance was bliss.
TERMS & CONDITIONS OF OSCAR
The condition of halitosis is one of stinking denial.
Oscarâs face is like a board game in which his eyes, ears, mouth and nose compete to win the prize of ânastiest featureâ. If I were judging, Iâd say his eyes take the prize. Theyâre less like eyes, more like hollows left by a departing soul.
In case youâre still unsure: I hate him.
I remembered it all so clearly now.
He has repugnant halitosis and was forever saying about other people, âMan, that guy has rank breath!â
In fact itâs just bad-breath rebound. Oscar hasnât sussed out that itâs his own breath wafting back at him.
The only positive about Oscar is that heâs the one thing left that my wife and I completely agree on. (Yes, turns out Iâm not a huge fan of my wife either, but Iâll come to that.)
I remembered that my wife and I often played the Who-Hates-Oscar-The-Most game.
Iâd say: âIf Oscar was an animal, heâd be a rattlesnake.â
Sheâd trump this with: âOscar is Stalin and Hitlerâs lovechild.â
Iâd double-trump that with: âMost people are reincarnated as animals. Oscar will be reincarnated as AIDS.â
You get the idea. I wonât write what Oscar actually is. It is simply too offensive.*
* (Oscar is a cunt.)
TERMS & CONDITIONS OF MY FAMILY
No need to get personal.
Then the crux of the matter came to me. The source of my rage â
the Will
.
My dadâs Will stated that Oscar would take over the business, then I would become partner, and finally my youngest brother, Malcolm, would too. The contract was specific and fair; we all had to work hard to earn our partnerships. It was nepotism with a legal shine.
Unfortunately, Dad put one tiny sentence in the Will which stipulated that my election to partner would be determined â
at such a time as Oscar sees fit
â.
A decade after Dadâs death, Oscar hasnât yet
seen fit
. My life ruined by one sentence.* It will be my epitaph.
Here lies Frank. He died at such a time as Oscar saw fit
. My dad snapped me into a legal trap. I remembered vividly the day I learned of Dadâs Will: a grey lawyer reading a manila Will in a beige office. The windows had steel bars that bent outwards and the walls were piled high with red books. The significance of the moment saturated everything with symbolism as I sat in my legal jail. And Oscar, calm as can be, stretched his fat legs out like a man sunbathing.
* I warned you about that small print.
My youngest brother, Malcolm, had his own response. He stood, said, âFuck this,â walked out, got on a plane and never returned. Shrewd move.
The reading of the Will was a crossroads in my life but Iâm still standing in the centre of it, still undecided, still too chicken-shit to move. Iâm not saying I was my fatherâs favourite or that he loved me the most. He was egalitarian in his love.* But just to stick to tradition andgive everything to the eldest brother was intolerable. Surely my father, even through paternal eyes, blurry with pride, must have noticed that Oscar was a power-mad twat.
* His love was equitable and fair. His love would have stood up in a court of law. Legal love.
Dad distributed the remaining