dream which she couldnât remember. She had wandered in a horror of darkness, and in that darkness something dreadful had happened. She did not know what it was. The black curtain hid it, but presently she would know.
The thought terrified her. She tried to think how much longer that shut door of No. 8 would remain shut. Ross employed a man to valet him and keep his flat. He came in by the day. She began to wonder how soon he would come. Not before seven, she thought. She supposed he would have a key. Well, then, he would open the door and go in.⦠She got no farther than that. Her mind felt numb and blank.
She went into the kitchen and looked at the clock, an old eight-day wall-clock with a heavy tick. You could see it the moment you opened the door. The short hand stood at five, and the long was very near to the half hour. But she remembered that it was fast, so it was really only five oâclock. Cousin Lucy was always talking about having it regulated, but the clock had been half an hour fast for at least ten years, and would probably go on being fast to the end.
When the sheets were dry she put them back on the bed, tumbling and crumpling them so that the washed places should not show. It was now about a quarter to six. She opened the flat door and looked out. Rush was moving down below. She could hear him sweeping the hall. She ought to put a note out for the milkman. It was extraordinarily stabilizing to think about things like the milkman coming, and having to go round to the shops for groceries. She tried hard to keep her mind on groceries and the milkman.
It was no use, she couldnât do it. Her eyes went to that shut door, and her thoughts went too. She couldnât take her eyes away, and she couldnât stop her thoughts. There is a dreadful sort of nightmare in which you canât run away and a pursuing something is coming nearer, nearer, nearer. But this was worse, because she couldnât even stand still. The thing behind that shut door was drawing herâher eyes, her shuddering thoughts. With a frantic effort she dragged them away and ran across the landing to the door of No. 9. Peterâshe must get to Peterâthen perhaps she would wake up and find it was all a terrifying dream. The quarrel on which she had dwelt with so much satisfaction last night had dwindled to a speck. Peter was Peter, and if she could get to him, everything would be all right.
She rang the bell, and waited with an agonized fear lest he should be away. Her finger went again to the bell, as if its persistent ringing must reach him wherever he was and call him back. But when the door opened and she saw him she was suddenly calm. She said, âI want to come in,â and stepped past him into the hall.
If it had been anyone but Lee, the door would not have been opened widely enough to let the visitor in. But LeeâLee who was on her way to South America with a damned dago.⦠No, thank God, she wasnâtâshe was here.
Peter opened the door so that there should be no mistake about it, and Lee was inside and the door shut again. He said, âLee!,â and she said, âPeter!â and he put his arms round her and said, âDarling!â And what Lee would have said to that he wasnât to know, because at that moment the bedroom door opened and Mavis Grey came out. She was wearing the late Miss Mary Craddockâs best thin summer dress, a dark grey silk with a pattern on it of mauve forget-me-nots and black leaves, and at any other time her appearance in this incongruous garment with its shapeless bodice and its long, full skirt, would certainly have made Lee and Peter laugh. At the moment their reactions were of a different nature.
Peter said âDamn!â very heartily, and Lee released herself with a jerk. This was natural enough. It was Mavis whose behaviour was surprising. She stared at Lee, and all the colour went out of her face. Left high and dry, the brightly
Dorothy Calimeris, Sondi Bruner