The Broken Girl (Lonely Girl Book 2) by Gracie Wilson Read Free Book Online

you feel about Keegan?” I sigh because he’s skirted over the fact that I love him. It pains me because I know he doesn’t love me back the same way. “ I love Keegan and you know that, but I was coming home to end things with him. It wasn’t the right time for us.” Jake looks at me with questioning eyes. “Whose time is it then, Becca?” Jake is not able to look me in the eyes and I feel the sting of rejection. “No one’s, my love is broken. I’m broken. But I can’t leave Keegan behind either. I will be his best friend; I will help him find his place. But his place isn’t with me. No one’s is.” I see the hurt cross Jake’s face and I realize my mistake right away. “Jake, I mean romantically. You’re my best friend and that’s never going to change.”
    “What if I want that to change?” I feel like I’ve been hit by a car and I can’t catch my breath. “Jacob, please don’t say that. I need my best friend. I need you. I can’t lose you too. Please don’t leave me alone. I’m sorry. This entire thing is my fault and I know I shouldn’t have you in my life after the danger I put you in. If I were smart, I’d leave now because I’m still putting you in danger. I feel like if I walked away now, my heart would always be here… here with you. I know you don’t feel that way and that’s fine, but I can’t lose my best friend. Jake, please don’t do this to me.” I look up to see him smirking at me. “Becca, come here.”
    I make myself walk the short distance to him and he grabs my hand, pulling me to sit beside him. I look down, unable to keep eye contact with him. He undoubtedly is about to break what little piece is left of my heart by telling me he doesn’t want to be my friend. I feel his hands go on either side of my face and he pulls me down towards him. He lightly kisses my lips and I feel at first like it’s a goodbye. Then suddenly it gets more heated as he presses his lips with more force and I let myself go. I bring my hand into his hair and kiss him with everything I have. Trying to put every ounce of love I have for him into it because this is all I’m ever going to get with Jake. “Becca.” He whispers my name against my lips and I pull back, feeling the sting of rejection coming.
“Jesus, Becca. Just relax, okay? You’re going to give yourself a heart attack.” I go to slide off the bed but he grabs my hand. “Goodbye, Jake.” He doesn’t let go of my hand and I turn to look at him with tears in my eyes, streaming down my face. “Becca, are you really that dumb. I’ve loved you since I saw you by the lake when you visited Alec. You drew me in hook line and sinker at that very moment. I told you all those times that I wasn’t in love with you because I thought it’s what you wanted to hear. I’d rather have you in my life as my friend than nothing at all. I’d still rather have that, even if it were not what you wanted. I know right now that you are lost and I’m lost too, Becca. We need to heal but when we’ve healed, I want to be with you. I want you to choose me and have no doubt that you want it to be only me.” I nod. Jake loves me? Maybe I am that dumb since I didn’t see it.
    “We will get Keegan better, you will deal with all this, and I will get to leave the hospital. You will not feel guilty, Becca. I won’t let you. Keegan wouldn’t want you to and I don’t want you to. I know we’d both do it again and get in that car to protect you, even knowing that this is going to be the outcome. I’d die for you, Becca. If I remember correctly, you didn’t care much about your safety that night, only ours. So is it so crazy that we’d feel the same way?” Clearing all this with Jake makes things easier. “I only slept with Kristy because I heard Keegan talking about what his plans were for the night. I wanted to punch him and go all cavemen, dragging you out of there. I’m sorry, Becca. Wait… where did you sleep this whole