was . . .â
âDoing a Jimmy Stewart.â
âYes!â Relief and laughter mixed in the word. âYes, like
Rear Window
. Only you donât expect to see Raymond Burr loading up the pieces of his dead wife into a big chest and hauling it out. Or was it suitcases? Anyway. I donât think of it as spying, or didnât until this happened. Itâs like theater. All the world really is a stage, and I like being in the audience.â
He waded his way through that to the key. âBut you didnât see Oliver. You didnât see him hit her? Push her?â
âNo. I told the police. I saw someone hit her, but it was the wrong angle to see him. She was crying and scared and pleadingâI could see all that on her face. I got my phone to call nine-one-one, and then . . . She came flying out the window. The glass shattered, and she just flew through it and fell.â
This time he put his hand over hers, left it there because it trembled. âTake it easy.â
âI keep seeing it. Keep seeing the glass breaking, and her flying out, the way her arms went wide, and her feet kicked at the air. I hear her scream, but thatâs in my head. I didnât hear her. Iâm sorry about your brother, butââ
âHe didnât do this.â
For a moment she said nothing, just lifted her glass, sipped quietly at the lemonade.
âHe wasnât capable of doing this,â Ash said.
When she lifted her gaze to his, sympathy and compassion radiated.
She was no Valkyrie, he thought. She felt too much.
âItâs terrible what happened.â
âYou think I canât accept my brother could kill, then kill himself. Itâs not that. Itâs that I
know
he couldnât. We werenât close. I hadnât seen him in months, and then only briefly. He was tighter with Giselle, theyâre closer in age. But sheâs in . . .â
Sorrow fell into him again like stones. âIâm not entirely sure. Maybe Paris. I need to find out. He was a pain in the ass,â Ash continued. âAn operator without the killer instinct it takes to be an operator. A lot of charm, a lot of bullshit, and a lot of big ideas without any practical sense of how to bring them around. But he wouldnât hit a woman.â
Sheâd watched them, he remembered. âYou said they argued a lot. Did you ever see him hit her, push her?â
âNo, but . . .â
âI donât care if he was stoned or drunk or both, he wouldnât hit a woman. He wouldnât kill a woman. Heâd never kill himself. Heâd believe whatever heâd gotten sucked into, someone would pull him out again. An eternal optimist, that was Oliver.â
She wanted to be careful; she wanted to be kind. âSometimes we donât know people as well as we think.â
âYouâre right. He was in love. Oliver was either in love or looking for it. He was in it. Whenever heâs ready to be out of it, he wiggles out, takes off awhile, sends the woman an expensive gift and a note of regret. âItâs not you, itâs me,â that kind of thing. Too many drama-filled divorces, so he went for the clean, callous break. And I know he was too damn vain to stick a gun in his mouth and pull the trigger. If he was going to kill himselfâand heâd never hit that much despairâheâdâve gone for pills.â
âI think it was an accidentâher fall. I mean all in the heat of the moment. He mustâve been out of his mind in those moments after.â
Ash shook his head. âHeâd have called me, or come running. Heâs his motherâs youngest and her only son, so he was indulged. When there was trouble, heâd call somebody to help him get out of it. Thatâs his knee-jerk. âAsh, Iâm in some trouble here. You have to fix things.ââ
âHe usually called