college students â âweâll get started. Iâll be in my office.â And she turned away.
Dolores waited until she was out of earshot. âMomâs writing about slaves â thatâs why she treats me like one.â
Everybody laughed, and we followed her into the living room. I couldnât help noticing the beige curtains, the soft gray rugs, and the apricot sofa. Not a single rose in sight. I took a peek into what I guessed was Doloresâs room. She had a paisley bedspread and an old-fashioned dresser with a lava lamp on it. The walls were covered with posters of people I didnât know. A hippie-looking black guy with a big Afro, playing the guitar, a drawing of a white guy with swaths of different color hair, and pictures of Martin Luther King, Jr., and Malcolm X.
âSit down. Iâll get some juice for everyone,â said Dolores as she sailed out the door. We sat. Silently.
âHow about those gays at Stonewall Inn?â said Messeret.
âI know,â said Avery. âGay people fighting for their rights? I mean â usually they donât even want to be found out.â Then he started singing that song about how great it was to do your own thing.
âEverybody has the right to live the way they want to,â added Andrea seriously.
I was hoping they didnât look at me, because I had no idea what they were talking about. But they did look at me and waited for me to say something. And out of nowhere came: âMy grandmother has an album full of old photos of people being killed in Puerto Rico.â
Silence. Now they didnât know what I was talking about.
âJuice, anyone?â Dolores entered with a tray of drinks.
I stood up. âI gotta go,â I said. âI have to get home.â
âWait,â Dolores said, putting down the drinks. I wondered if she was happy that I was leaving. âIâll show you to the door.â
âSee you tomorrow,â I said quietly.
I walked, still counting to keep calm as I approached El Barrio . One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight. I knew when I was getting to my neighborhood because of the noise and because I could smell the garbage overflowingin the trash cans. Nobody was home when I arrived. It was evening. Everyone was probably still at the bodega . I was exhausted.
I opened the sofa bed and slipped in, wondering if it was possible to sleep angry.
T he next Sunday I confronted Mami.
âIâm not going to church.â
âWhat?â
âIâm not going.â I rolled over in bed and closed my eyes. Mami stood over me, but I would not turn her way. After a moment, she sighed and gave up.
As soon as she was gone, I listened to see if Abuela was awake. I didnât hear a peep. I tiptoed into her room, which was empty.
I was free to walk around in my underwear. I got myself a bowl of cereal, ate quickly, then started playing with my hair. I put it up in a ponytail, using the hair bands Abuela had bought me. I pulled on my pants and a shirt, and went outside.
It was a nice day, not as hot as it had been all week. The air held a hint of greasy smell and garbage. If it werenât for the loud Pentecostals on the corner shouting their âhallelujahâs,â it wouldâve been a calm day in El Barrio .
I closed my eyes to take in the sun, when I heard a crash of glass, then a smack and a cry.
Up the block, Angel was lying on the sidewalk.
His father and the piragua cart were right behind him.
The bottle with the blue syrup lay shattered on the ground.
I ran closer to see what was happening.
Señor Santiagoâs eyes were red with rage. His shirt was damp with perspiration, his hair matted with sweat. He was yelling at Angel.
âGet up, I didnât hit you so hard.â
Angel peered up at me with only one eye open. He got up slowly.
âGet home,â his father hissed.
Angel gave me a weak smile. He started to walk away.