of club soda and stepped into the pool.
I got in after himâthe water was piss-warm and motionless. âAll right, whatâs the story?â I asked.
âFirst, let me ask you something. Do you remember that book I told you to read when we were hanginâ in the Pokes?â
I remembered. In fact, it surprised me that he remembered; I figured the time we spent together had made more of an impression on me than on him.
âYeah,â I told him. âWe were talking about John Le Carré. The Russia House .â
âThatâs right. There was a line in it I told you about. One of my favorites. You remember what it was?â
I didnât. In fact, I hadnât managed to read the book all the way through. I had always found Le Carréâs books dense and slow-going, though I didnât mind some of the movies and BBC TV series based on his novels.
âThatâs all right,â he said. âItâs something the Russian agent says to Barley, the British publisherââPromise me that if ever I find the courage to think like a hero, you will act like a merely decent human being.ââ
Conner repeated those last five words. He lingered over their syllables as if they were part of some prayer he had learned back in Catholic schoolâ a merely decent human being .
âI have a feeling this story may turn out to be kind of like that,â he said.
âWhy?â I asked. âAre you about to become a hero?â
âNot me,â he said. âMaybe the opposite.â
âYou mean a villain?â
âYeah,â Conner said. âMaybe something like that.â
7
T he sun was beating down hard, and here we wereâtwo forty-year-old guys in swimming trunks and baseball caps sipping club sodas in the shallow end of a pool at a roadside Hilton in West Lafayette with a view out onto the Interstate and the Flying J rest stop. I joked to Conner that we probably looked like a couple of kingpins planning a drug deal, but that was wishful thinking. Iâm sure we looked more like a couple of washed-up dads waiting for our kids to come down to the pool. My baseball cap shaded my face, but I could still feel the sunlight reflecting off the water, charring my cheeks. Connerâs skin was already bronzed, which pretty much summed up the differences between him and meâhe tanned; I burned.
âHow was Chicago?â I asked.
âNot all that great,â he said. He had taken the first flight out of Indy, and arrived at ten in the morning at the Drake Hotel, where he checked into the Authorâs Suite, reputed to be the smallest suite in the hotelâeven I had stayed in there when I was touring to support Nine Fathers, which should give you an idea of its modesty. He got a ride to Navy Pier, where he conducted an interview at WBEZ with the daytime host Rick Kogan, who had replaced Steve Edwards, the dude I held partially responsible for ruining my relationship with my mother.
Conner called Angie a couple of times to check in and see how she and Atticus were doing but, as always seemed to be the case these days, her temper was short and she seemed rushed; all she wanted to discuss was the work she needed to do around the house and what Conner would need to do when he got homeâthe toilet was backing up again; paint was chipping in the nursery and she sure hoped there wasnât lead in it; the seventh year on their adjustable rate mortgage was rapidly approaching. So Conner spent most of the day wandering along Lake Michigan, checking out the boats, the swimmers, the sunbathers, and the chess players, seeking inspiration for his next novel. Then he started heading north to his bookstore event.
âThatâs just about when things started getting weird,â he said.
Connerâs publisher had hired a driver to take him to his reading at the Borders on Clark Street and Diversey Avenue, about three miles from his hotel, but since