The Totem 1979 by David Morrell Read Free Book Online Page A

Slaughter set down the phone, scratched his chin, and peered out the window.
    “Marge,” he said and opened the door.
    She looked at him.
    “Sam Bodine and old Doc Markle. Weren’t they friends?”
    “The father and the doctor were. I don’t know much about the son.”
    Slaughter didn’t either. He had heard the old man talk vaguely about him, but he’d never understood the story.
    “Guess it’s time I took a drive. Anybody calls, I won’t be back till after lunch.”
    Chapter Nine.
    It was a place he’d never been. Slaughter had made a point of getting close to nearly all the ranchers around town, but Bodine was a loner, and except for once or twice a year, at ranchers’ meetings or in passing on the street, Slaughter almost never saw him. Strictly speaking, Slaughter had jurisdiction only in the town. The state police had power in the valley, so it wasn’t strange that Slaughter barely knew him. All the same, the town and valley were related, and he liked to keep on top of what was going on out there.
    He meant to tell Bodine what had happened, to find out if the steer the old man had been working on was his. Slaughter could have phoned to do that, but really it was better that he drive out and do it in person. This way, he had a chance to be alone and think, mulling through the times that he and Markle had shared together, facing up to what had happened so he could adjust to it and keep his feelings separate from his work. That was just about the only value that he had, the largest one at any rate. Of course, that value was a mix of several others, but they all combined to just one thing-the need to keep his life as straight and simple as he could. Since his work was really all that mattered to him (so he told himself at least; he wished he had his children with him), that meant keeping his work as straight and simple as he could as well. He couldn’t be two people, feeling one way, acting some way else. He had to bring them both together, which was why he liked to have the crew he worked with out at his place on the weekends. Seeing all those people was a way of merging leisure with his work.
    So the old man had passed on now. Never mind “passed on.” The old man was plain dead. Three days later, Monday, he’d be underneath the dirt. There wasn’t anything that Slaughter could do about it. Feeling bad was just a distraction. Anyway, he told himself, how come you’re feeling bad to start with? For the old man, for his wife, or for yourself? Is that sorrow or regret? You owed him things. You didn’t go around to see him. Now he’s dead, and you start wishing that you’d gone. Some friend you turned out to be. All right, hey, get control. Get it straight that next time you’ve got dues to pay, you pay them. Next time you make friends, you understand the obligations.
    Right, he told himself and then repeated. Right, he thought and shook his head. And then because he didn’t like the way his mind was working, he did his best to switch it off, to concentrate on driving, to look at the fields around him, at the mountains. The sky was almost white now. He could feel the stark sun burning through the rear glass of the car. Today would be the hottest yet, and he was thinking of the ranchers who’d be working in the parched grass of the range. The cattle wouldn’t breathe well. Some would die. Then, because the thought of death was going through him, he began to notice all the carcasses of animals that were here and there beside the road. Five of them in just one mile. A raccoon and a porcupine, a field squirrel, and a rabbit, then a skunk, stiff and bloating in the sun. He thought of old Doc Markle, shook his head, and didn’t bother counting anymore.
    He turned left, rattling across the grate, heading down the dusty road between the fields, seeing cattle, coming up a rise, then seeing where the house and barn were down there in a hollow. He saw trees and sheds, a wood pile, a big corrugated metal