was a baby. Stacks of novels sent by the do-gooders at the sheriffâs department outreach: King, Hemingway, Shelley, Howard. Hell, even Shakespeare. Iâm not an idiot. I like to read. It makes the outside closer, the walls thinner. After a week, Jackâs got his orange jumpers in a drawer, but no pictures of family, no posters of bands, no books, no magazines. And that reminds me that Quincrux left him a gift but Iâve never seen it. I never thought to ask.
âWhat was it Quincrux gave you? The gift that says something about you. And him.â
Jack pulls a comic from underneath his mattress. âThis. I meant to show you.â
Itâs an X-Men comic. A big-breasted super-mutant with fiery eyes glares at me. Weird. Sheâs hot but angry. What could make her so angry?
âI donât get it. Whatâs he trying to say?â
Jack hesitates. He throws the comic onto the bed, then goes over to the desk and sits at the chair.
âI donât know.â He sighs and looks down at his hands in his lap. âThat Iâm a mutant.â
I laugh. âNaw. ThatâsâI donât knowâsilly.â
He looks at the door, making sure no one can see, and holds up his hand, fingers splayed.
âNot so silly.â
âBut itâs justâ¦â I stop and think a bit. I need to say this right. âMy cousin is double-jointed. A kid I knew in school could add any two numbers in her head like lightning. You could just call âem out, and sheâd answer. Youâd have to get a calculator to check, but she was always right. Another kid could play any instrument he could touch, like heâd been playing it all his life.â This last one I saw on television, but I donât tell Jack that. âSo I donât think having extra fingers makes youââ
âA mutant?â Jack shakes his head and sighs again. âIt does make me different.â Heâs not looking at me. Heâs got that far-off, thousand-mile stare. I worry that sometime the little dude wonât be able to get back from wherever it is he goes when he gets that way.
âHey, man. Weâre all different.â Thatâs what your momma believes. That we can all grow up to be president or millionaires and everyone is a little Van Gogh and thereâs never been another like us. But most kids in the general pop could be clones, all pressed out from the same mold, theyâre so damned homogeneous. Maybe I just think so because I donât know them well enough. But, I swear, all I have to get to know is one. But maybe Jack really is different.
âLet me buy you some ice cream, Jack, me boy. Iâm flush this week and got a sweet tooth.â
He laughs. âAwesome. I donât have any money.â
âHeck, Iâll even throw in a burger, son.â
We hit the commissary and eat the breakfast of champions: cheeseburgers, cheesy fries con jalapeños, and icy sodas, followed by orange Push-Ups. The Commons is a madhouseâthe D-Wing cadre howling and throwing paper at the TV showing ESPN, and the C-Wing brutes glowering and gloating on the opposite side. Whoever holds the remote is king.
We head out to the yard, stomachs burbling.
Casimir Pulaski Detention Center is in the shape of a large X. A, B, C, and D wings form the arms of the cross, with Admin and classrooms and offices in the center, where the arms meet. The yard, a wide expanse of grass and basketball courts and bleachers lining a half-size football field, is one of the biggest differences between juvie and a penitentiary yard. The yard is lush, well-kept, and filled with balls and laughter and boys running about, acting like idiots, which is exactly the way boys are supposed to act.
Even I know that.
The illusion of a playground is broken only by the bulls. No Booth today. But Red Wolf, Wilkins, Peters, Blanchard, and Diegal lurk about, hands on billy clubs and pepper spray. We call the