The Twin by Gerbrand Bakker Read Free Book Online

bordering the field opposite The Unicorn are damp. I can't see the end of the row of trees, the trunks blur in the thin mist. A car races past. Then it's quiet again. On the other side of the junction, standing next to a less beautiful farmhouse, are three horses.
     
Ada is right, the Beemster is lovely, even in late autumn, but I'm thinking of Denmark. I have the idea that it's often misty in Denmark.
     
Ada opens the car door and gets out of the car. 'What are you doing?' she asks.
     
'Nothing special, just standing here,' I say.
     
She looks at me. 'Are you okay?'
     
'Sure,' I say.
     
'Funerals are weird.'
     
'Yeah.'
     
'Especially when it's someone you didn't know very well.'
     
'Uh-huh.'
     
'It makes you feel more alive afterwards than you did before.'
     
'Where does this Galtjo guy live?'
     
'No idea. I didn't know that Arie came from as far away as Venhuizen either. What do we know about these people?'
     
'Not much,' I say.
     
'Shall we go home?'
     
'Let's do that.' I take the middle road to the North Holland Canal, which I follow past Purmerend, Ilpendam and Watergang, until Het Schouw. Then through Broek and home.
     
Walking into the milking parlour, I hear the phone ringing. I hurry through the scullery to the hall to answer it. Nothing. 'Hello?' I say. It stays quiet on the other end of the line, the kind of silence in which you hear someone holding their breath. 'Who's there?' No one responds and I hang up. The newspaper is lying unread on the kitchen table. I can't sit down. I have to do something. It's afterwards now: I'm more alive than I was before.
     
I have a beautiful, small handsaw that is exceptionally well suited to pollarding willows. It's stayed very sharp for a very long time and must have been expensive. There are willows on the south side and at the back of the farm, and I pollard them every two or three years. I haven't got round to it yet this year and today is a perfect day for pollarding. Hopefully tomorrow will be too, because I can't get it all done in just one day. Halfway through the first willow I'm warmed up and when I start on the second I'm already sweating. I don't need a ladder, a potato crate is high enough. When it's almost time to start milking, I've done the six willows at the side of the farm and have no idea what I've been thinking about the whole time. I throw a few shoots in the donkeys' trough and phone Ada. She has started work on a wooded bank in what is intended to become Waterland's most beautiful garden. I tell her that she can have my willow shoots if she comes and gets them herself.
     

12
Father is standing at the window. That's not right. He is leaning on the narrow windowsill and his forehead is pressed against the glass. There is a washed-out light in the bedroom, the weather is like yesterday's: misty with the sun trying vainly to break through.
     
'How'd you get there?' I ask.
     
He says something but I can't understand him.
     
'What?'
     
He pushes himself up a little with his arms, straightening his back and pulling his head back from the glass. 'The hooded crow's gone,' he says.
     
'What?'
     
'The hooded crow, it flew away.'
     
Looking past Father through the bedroom window, I now see what I didn't see through the front kitchen window: the branch of the crooked ash is empty.
     
'It wasn't waiting for me.'
     
'No, of course not, what kind of rubbish is that?'
     
'That's what I thought.' His arms start trembling and his head shakes.
     
'But it would have been wonderful,' I say under my breath.
     
'What?'
     
'Walk back to bed,' I say.
     
'I can't.'
     
'Why not? You got to the window, didn't you?'
     
Slowly he turns around, keeping his right hand on the windowsill. He looks at his bed like a hesitant long-jumper eyeing the take-off board. Inch by inch he shuffles away from the window. 'I'm not going to make it,' he says, halfway.
     
'Yes, you will,' I say, 'don't give up.'
     
He doesn't make it. I'm there to help him. I lift him up