âeternal optimist.â Hell, if thatâs what the bourbon gives you, more power to it. But him watchinâ me was annoyinâ, so I guess I might have said, âI heard ya the first time,â or somethinâ a touch rude like that.
Next thing she did was ask me about Dolores. Dolores is my dog. She was at my side like always. And even though Dolores seemed to like her fine, I still couldnât speak to Bronwyn of Magnolia Creek. I could list the ways sheâd hurt the ones I loved most. Leavinâ like she did. Makinâ Jackson and my daddy miss her anâ worry over her. But I do have to admit it, she was damn pretty, with a soft bit underneath ⦠so instead of just walkinâ away from her, as Iâd planned, I muttered some kind of answer, I think.
Then she did the strangest thing.
She thanked me for watching out for her brother ⦠in French . And I thought Iâd faint. So I said, âYouâre welcomeâ (in French, of course ⦠I mean Iâm tryinâ not to be too rude), and ran off. âCause I didnât know what to say next. And nothing, not one thing was coming out right or feeling the way Iâd figured it would.
I ran off into the side yard and climbed up into Esther. Sheâs the biggest Southern magnolia in more than fifteen counties. And sheâs the oldest on our property. I love her.
I sat in her branches so I could watch what would happen next from way up high. Would my aunt turn around and leave again? Itâs what Iâd expected.⦠No matter how much preparation Iâd done for her arrival, I didnât think sheâd actually stay . I figure itâs the same for most folks. You plan and you make things all pretty for your guests, but in the end you want them to come for a bit, ooh and aah, and then go on home thinking about how amazing you are.
But sitting there in that tree, I changed my mind.
Because everything wasnât fine. And I thought maybe I needed her.
And I never thought Iâd feel that way about no one, âcept for Jamie.
I was relieved when Jackson finally went into the house and Aunt Bronwyn set herself right down on the front steps lookinâ off into the distance. She hadnât come after me. Maybe she understood. Maybe sheâd be the one to solve the mystery. Maybe sheâd love me and stay forever.
These kinds of thoughts I have, that go one way first and then the other so quick I canât keep track, are the thoughts my daddy calls âthe crazy fuckalls.â Iâm not supposed to say it âcause thereâs a curse word in there. But itâs a good way to describe curvy thoughts.
âByrd,â heâd sayâlaughing at me because Iâd said I didnât want ice cream because I hated it and then I did want ice cream because I like rum raisin and ainât it the best thing ever?ââyou got a case of the crazy fuckalls,â then weâd laugh and eat a whole carton of rum raisin.
Iâd almost forgot his smiling ways and eyes and hands.
My daddyâs got the smoothest palms. Rich man hands. Not like Jackson. Jackson doesnât live like heâs rich. He did hard work next to the farmhands when he was young and prefers the outdoorsâlike me. At least he did, until the drink made him escape into the universe inside his chest. That big olâ place where he still lives all twisted up with Naomi. Beautiful Naomi who still dances across the floor of her rooms in the east wing of the Big House. Jackson keeps them locked up, and Minerva cleans them, then locks them up again. But I get in, always have. I go visit her.
Naomi throws fine tea parties. For a dead lady, that is.
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I saw the sign as soon as I got off the plane, but I ignored the man holding it.
And Iâll be damned if he didnât follow me down to baggage claim anyway. Every last person in Alabama seems to