Ana to visit your parents for the weekend.â But in the few islands of calm, I was able to somehow rekindle the spirit of that Marine Corps motto. I decided that if nothing else, I would not quit on the woman I loved; I would not quit on our daughter. If it brought me to my knees, so be it. I would see her through her recovery process. I needed to be there to make sure she was safe and protected, regardless of any impact that would have on me.
Now, four years later, my wife is on good meds and in good therapy, and she has regained her true, loving self. Our daughter has her mom back, I have my wife back, and she has herself back. And it is because of this fundamental belief, this notion that you never quit on those you love.
Semper Fi.
Andrew Paradis is a former U.S. Marine and current theoretical physicist/software engineer. He grew up in Fort Kent, Maine, with four younger brothers, who correctly tortured him for his many idiosyncrasies. He lives and works in western Maine with his wife and daughter and their dogs, cats, and horses.
Our Vulnerability Is Our Strength
Colin Bates
Most of my friends have recently graduated from college. Every so often one will call me up to grumble about their new job, telling me how underappreciated they feel or how theyâre not achieving the success they wanted. I enjoy listening to them. I think thatâs what friends are for. But it also gives me perspective on my own work.
I work with two developmentally disabled men, my bosses essentially, who each have profound mental retardation. Theyâre loud without being able to speak. Theyâre violent without understanding the consequences. They canât bathe themselves. They canât cook or work a job. Their behaviors range from catatonic to aggressive.
As a resident service assistant, I go to where these men live and help them in everything they doâbathing, dressing, cooking, feeding, cleaning, going to the bathroomâfrom the moment they wake until they go to bed. It pays nine bucks an hour.
Underappreciated? Try having your hair ripped out while changing a diaper. Try having the meal youâve prepared thrown at you. Try being spit on.
The funny thing is, I love my job. I do. I know Iâm young and still have a lot to learn, but here it is: I believe in helplessness, which is to say I believe we need other humans.
It isnât enough to be what our society has dubbed as successful. What we really need are others around us engaging, nurturing, listening, and willing to sacrifice their time and agendas. I donât care if youâre the CEO of a multibillion-dollar company or a single mother with five kids. Nobody is completely self-sufficient, and so, in that way, we are all helpless. Weâre helpless unto each other.
The cool thing about the guys I work for is that they make their needs explicit. Things that take seconds for most of us, like changing socks, can take hours for them, but their vulnerability isnât a handicap so much as an example. Being with them, encouraging themââYes, the socks are on! The socks are off!ââputs things into perspective.
Most of the people I know are embarrassed by what they canât do. They see it as a sign of weakness and consequently walk around with burdened hearts. For my generation the notion that success equals fulfillment has been pounded into our brains as if it were the truth. My generation is being told that if you canât do something alone, if youâre not smart enough or capable enough, then youâve failed.
So far, the turning points in my life have not been the times I succeeded at something, but the times Iâve whispered, âIâm lost,â or âHelp me,â or âI need a friend.â In becoming helpless, Iâve allowed myself to be shaped and supported by those who love meâwhich makes helplessness a gift.
And I have my bosses to thank for it. Weâve discovered the joy
Rebecca Hamilton, Conner Kressley