Three Thousand Miles by Deila Longford Read Free Book Online

with all the negative thoughts, I have, I still want to her to call him. I need to know that he is ok and that possibly he is thinking of me. I take a deep breath and I say.
    “Yes , I have thought about it , and all the possibilities , but I still want you to call him , I know that I would regret it if I told you not to . ” Katharine does not answer instead she hits the call the button. The phone begins to ring and I can feel my heart race as we wait for Adrian to pick up. My chest is thumping even harder the longer I wait for him to answer. I look to Katharine and I notice that she is just as nervous as I am. Katharine’s face has lost its entire colour and her eyes are blinking rapidly.  Her breathing is heavy as she holds the phone to her ear. I notice the movements of her face as I look down to floor.
    “Hello”, she finally says and I realise that Adrian has answered. My heart is now pounding and I feel that if it beats any faster it will jump out of my chest. I immediately focus my attention on Katharine.
    “Adrian it is Katharine, please don’t hang up !” S he says her voice sounding urgent.  Katharine walks over and sits next to me on the bed. She puts the speakerphone on and begins to talk to Adrian.
    “Adrian, I need to talk to you ,” her voice now sounds weaker than before.
    “Go ahead , ” Adrian says and my heart feels as if it has sank into a deep ocean at the sound of his muscular voice.
    “Where are you Adrian?”
    “That is not important, how is Alanna?” H e sa ys in his deep London accent. “S he is fine and recovering well, she needs you .” M y nerves are shot and I cannot bear listening to his voice . I want to scream out to him, how much that I love him but I hold back and take in his words.
    “I am glad that she is ok but , you are wrong , she doesn’t need me in her life . ”
    “S he does need you , she loves you and you love her to o, don’t deny it . ”
    “I know how she feels, but Katharine she is better off without me I only bring risk to her and I wo n’t allow that to happen again.” Katharine stares at me, as I stare back I see that her face is mystified she must find this hard to understand. If this was Katharine in my situation, I know that I would be a lot sharper with Adrian. 
    “You are making no sense , ” I hear Adrian sigh .
    “Katharine, I am bad for Alanna and the sooner everyone sees that the better .” “No , you are what she needs, you cannot abandon her like this .” S he says now sounding sharper.
    “She will get over this and she will see that her life is better and safer without me . ” I feel the urge again to scream out to him but , yet again, I resist.
    “If you believe that then you are crazy, she will never get over you , she loves you too much to even try.”
    “Yes , I know that she loves me, I thank god every day that I met her, and she showed me how to care and how to you love. I will never get over her but I know that if I care for her then I have to let her go .” H e says in a desperate but sad voice. I am, scared by what he is saying. I felt that this was all just a brief thing and that he would come round in time. Hearing his words now seems too real and my worst fears about losing him are now realised. I try my hardest to fight back the tears that fill my eyes however, I am unsuccessful and they start to pour freely from eyes. Katharine looks to me and her face is sympathetic, she quickly reaches into her bag and pulls out a white tissue that is, designed with little daisies in the corner. She hands me the tissue and I nod to her in appreciation. I wipe away as much of my salty tears as I can. Katharine looks very annoyed now and I can see the frustration in her eyes.
    “ Adrian, you are fooling no-one. I know that you are still in love with Alanna, its time you got over yourself and came back . ” Katharine ’s expressions have also changed and I can tell that she is mad at Adrian. He r lips are white and her face is