But Brynn loves bath products. And the smell of cinnamon.
I think itâs perfect.
10:17 p.m.
Text from Sophie
Sophie: My dad comes tomorrow.
Me: Are you excited to see him?
Sophie: IDK.
Sophie: Kind of weird heâs coming to Faraway.
Me: Iâm sure itâll be fine.
Sophie: Heâs staying at the Faraway Inn.
Me: Might not be fine.
Sophie: Ha ha.
Sophie: Not what heâs used to.
Me: They have an indoor pool.
Sophie:
Sophie: Christmas will be weird.
Me: Presents are never weird.
Sophie: Thatâs true.
Me: When do you leave for New Orleans?
Sophie: Day after Christmas.
Me: Sounds like fun!
Sophie: It will be!
Tuesday, December 23, 8:45 a.m.
Awake
The first things I saw when I opened my eyes were the presents I got for Brynn. The bottles of bubble bath and lotion were on my dresser, just standing there, silent and unwrapped.
If they could talk, they would have been saying:
When are you going to give us to Brynn, and what are you going to say to her?
For a couple of mute bath products, they ask all the right questions.
1:35 p.m.
Billy called
I was going to go to Brynnâs this afternoon and give her the gift, but Billy just called and asked if I wanted to go on a bike ride.
Bike ride with Billy versus awkward moment with Brynn.
Thatâs a no-brainer.
4:57 p.m.
Back from bike ride
When Billy and I stopped at Mr. Ageeâs farm, where we always stop for our rest break, we got on the subject of Brynn. It was kind of weird that she wasnât on the ride. The three of us always took bike rides together. Plus, sheâs the one who always brought the drinks and snacks. That sounds a little cold, like I only wanted her there because we were hungry and thirsty, but that wasnât the case.
âDo you miss her?â I asked.
Billy nodded. âI called her and told her I really hope we can be friends,â he said.
âWhat did she say?â
âShe said she doesnât want to be friends.â
âThat was it?â I asked.
âThat was it,â said Billy.
I gulped. If she told Billy she didnât want to be friends, I could only imagine what sheâs going to say when I give her the bubble bath and lotion.
I have a feeling it might not be âMerry Christmas.â
Wednesday, December 24, 10:17 a.m.
Whatâs done is done
When I woke up this morning, I decided to just do it. I got dressed, ate a banana, and went to Brynnâs house to give her the gift. I wasnât sure what I was going to say. I figured the right words would come.
Her mom answered the door. âI have a Christmas present for Brynn,â I said. I held out the wrapped bath products to Mrs. Stephens.
I was a little self-conscious. Brynnâs mom is a perfectionist, and the package looked like Iâd wrapped it myself. Plus, I realized I had no idea what Brynn had told her mom about what happened. Iâm sure sheâd told her mom that Billy broke up with her, and I wouldnât be surprised if she told her that she thought Iâd had a hand in it.
Mrs. Stephens frowned. I felt my stomach drop.
âBrynn will be so disappointed she missed you,â said her mom. I couldnât tell if she meant what she was saying. âBrynn went to run an errand with her dad, but she has a gift for you too.â Mrs. Stephens half closed the door and walked away. When she came back, she had an elegantly wrapped box in her hands. âThis is for you,â she said. âMerry Christmas, April.â
I exchanged boxes with Brynnâs mom and told her to tell Brynn I said
Merry Christmas
. As I walked home, I thought about how uncomfortable the exchange had been. Iâd been to Brynnâs house hundreds, maybe thousands, of times. Lots of those times Iâd gone inside without knocking, and today Mrs. Stephens didnât even invite me in.
When I got to my room, I opened the gift from Brynn. It was a bottle of Donna Karan Green Apple perfume.
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