alley entrance. There he looked both ways before stepping out on the sidewalk and scurrying away, the cage dangling from his hand.
âHey you!â a manâs voice called out from the shadows across the street.
He froze. Heâd been careless. Heâd looked both ways up and down the sidewalk, but he hadnât noticed the two cops had crossed and were standing on the other side behind a parked car.
The man considered running, but heâd never been much of an athlete and knew that theyâd catch him. Besides, he reminded himself, youâve rehearsed this a thousand times . . . just in case .
âYes, sir?â he called out to the cops who were walking across the street toward him. His voice quavered and he hoped they would think it was just the cold. âWhat can I do for you?â
âCold night to be out,â said one of the uniformed officers, a large man with a scarf wrapped around his face.
âYes, sir,â the man replied. He held up the cage. âWe have rats in my motherâs apartment,â he said. âBorrowed a cage from a friend.â
âGot rats in my place, too,â the other cop, a short man, said. âBut they eventually wise up about the cage and wonât go near it. Get a cat.â
âI like cats,â the young man replied, âbut Motherâs allergic to cat hair. So I canât have one.â
âWell, hope you get âem with your cage,â the second cop said. âHave a good night.â
âThank you. Iâm sure I will . . . get them, I mean.â
As the cops turned away and began walking off in the direction theyâd come earlier, the man heard the big one snicker. âââWe have rats in Motherâs house,âââ he said, mimicking him. âAnd Jesus, Joseph, and Mary . . . you see his face?â
âYeah, what a freak. And wearing cherry red Chuck Taylors in weather like this; his feet had to be freezing,â he heard the shorter cop reply before their voices faded.
The young man stood still for a moment, clenching his fists. Even the fucking cops thought they were better than him. Itâs part of what made him want to burn things. He imagined running up to the cops and squirting them with gasoline like he had the rat. Then it would be burn baby burn, he thought happily.
However, he was powerless to act on his fantasy, so he walked off in the opposite direction. Because of the cold he hadnât gone too far from his home that night and arrived outside the run-down East Harlem walk-up where he and his mother had moved after leaving Brooklyn several years earlier. He looked up at the second floor, to the window of his motherâs bedroom, and was disappointed to see that a light was still on. Sheâs up. Sheâs going to want to talk. I donât want to talk to her. He considered waiting until she went to sleep, but as the cop had noted to his partner, his high-tops were soaked and he couldnât feel his feet anymore they were so cold.
He climbed the steps to the landing and pulled four keys on a ring from his pants pocket. There was a strong piece of string attached to the ring and the other end tied to a belt loop so that he wouldnât lose them. One of the keys he inserted into the door lock and another he used to turn the deadbolt to let himself into the building.
The other two keys were for the locks leading to their rooms on the second floor. He unlocked those and turning the knob as quietly as he could he entered the apartment. Muffled voices from down the hallway meant his mother was watching television. Removing his coat and hanging it on a peg next to the door, he crept toward his bedroom, hoping she might not hear him.
âSon?â his motherâs voice called out. âIs that you? Come see your mother.â
The young man hung his head. There was no escaping it. As he walked down the hallway to her room, he