Unbearable (the TORQUED trilogy Book 2) by Shey Stahl Read Free Book Online

much, my heart threatening to give out. “Seriously, Tyler, what does all of this mean to you?”
    There’s a deep inhale, his chest expanding. He’s studying me and gauging my words and reaction to this. I do my best not to give away anything, but I’m sure I fail miserably. “Why does it have to mean anything? We didn’t go into this looking for it to mean something. We went into it looking to have fun. We both agreed. Now you’re looking for a definition I can’t give you and it’s not fair. I didn’t do anything wrong. I didn’t change the game. You did. I didn’t go into this looking to fall in love. Had I, sure, maybe it could have turned into something more. But I didn’t and you knew that, Raven. I just don’t understand why you’re trying to find a bigger meaning in something so simple.”
    I can’t meet his eyes when I say, “There’s nothing wrong with wanting a bit of clarity.”
    His teeth grind, his swallow rolling over this throat. “Is that what this is? You’re gonna be gone during the week so you’re feeling insecure? Don’t be. We started with you being gone during the week. Nothing needs to change and this isn’t a matter of me not falling in love with you.” His body remains rigid, his face impassive. He’s putting up a shield, guarding himself from giving away too much. “It’s about me not falling in love, period. End of story. I don’t want love. I’m not looking for it. It’s something I told you from the very beginning I didn’t want in my life.”
    “Okay, fine.” There is a tightness in my chest I don’t understand as the words spill from my lips. Biting the inside of my cheek, blood pools in my mouth. I force myself to stay calm and not let him see how his words are chipping away at my already fractured heart.
    Standing from the bed, I reach for my clothes on the floor.
    “I’m not trying to be a dick, Raven.” He moves in front of me, refusing to let me get out of his room. “I like my life the way it is. This isn’t about you and me. Please understand that.”
    His voice is pleading. I have to believe him. There’s so much vulnerability in his voice. “So, while I’m away… you’re planning on having sex with whoever you feel like?” I’m searching for meaning.
    “I haven’t thought about it.” I can see it written all over his face. It’s in the pull of his brow. He honestly hasn’t yet. Part of me is thankful for that.
    “I just—” I don’t even know what I’m trying to say now.
    “Come on, let’s not fight about this. We don’t fight. We have fun.” He cups my cheek, his thumb dragging over my lip when he pulls me in. It’s relaxing in a sense because the last thing I want to do is fight with him. “Why can’t we just enjoy the moment that we have now? Stop worrying about what will happen once you’re not here every day.” He watches my face close, the desperation to change the situation clear. “Come here.”
    I do as he says, our chests touching, my emotions all over the place. Once our bodies are coming together, he turns me around so my back is to his chest. His breathing changes, his heart thumping between my shoulder blades and I know then this, us being together, is having some sort of effect on him. Maybe that’s why he’s doing it, making me stand this way. He knows if I could see his face, I would be able to see the truth. Whether it’s because he’s trying to protect me or hide from me is what I don’t quite know.
    Breathing in deeply, his chest expands into me.
    His hand glides across my stomach until he reaches my thighs.
    He moves us to the bed with me lying on top of him, my back still pressed to his chest. With heavy breaths in my ear, his hand moving lower until his thumb drags over my clit. “Just relax. Enjoy the moment. Let me take care of you,” he breathes out as two fingers slide into me. His left hand moves from my hip to my neck, squeezing and angling my head back so he can kiss my neck.
    Arching