Worth the Wait (Sexy Nerd Boys #1) by K. M. Neuhold Read Free Book Online Page B

Sartre. He’s an existentialist with this philosophy that morality is subjective. The one thing you can do that is truly wrong is to do something in ‘bad faith’, which basically means doing something you don’t believe in just to please other people.”
    His words pierce my heart. If I’d only been true to myself and stayed away from Justin to begin with who knows what kind of person I could be today. I may not have to be so damaged.
    “I like that,” I say quietly.  
                  “So, why no boyfriend?” He asks smoothly. I can’t help but roll my eyes.
                  “Because having a boyfriend is the pinnacle of life? If I’m single it’s definitely not by choice right?” I snap at him.
                  “I didn’t say that Red.”
                  “Stop calling me Red,” I gripe, taking another toke. “I’m single because my last relationship was bad, and ended badly. I needed time to get to know myself. Now that I know myself better, I don’t think I trust men and I certainly don’t need a man. I’m doing great on my own. I’m better than I ever was before.”
                  “Do you want to talk about it?” He asks.
    I shake my head sharply. I already said more than I usually do.
                  “No, why don’t you have a girlfriend?” I counter to get the spotlight off of myself.
                  “I don’t do commitment,” He responds vaguely.
                  “I know, Lee told me. I’m asking why.”
                  “It just isn’t my thing.”
                  “No, I guess that’s obvious.” I blow out a thick puff. “You’re more of a smooth talker. You’re a guy on a mission to get into every girls pants.” I accuse.
                  “That’s true. Although, I’m not trying to get in your pants, I’m just trying to get into your stash... at the moment.”
    I nod.
    “Fair enough.”
    Getting into my stash I can handle.
    However…Would fun, casual sex really be the end of the world? A gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach tells me that it wouldn’t solve much. I probably wouldn’t be able to go through with it anyways.  I sigh and fall back on my pillow.
                  “I guess that’s your prerogative,” I say and then start laughing. Prerogative...funny word.
                  “Everyone just needs to do what works for them and everyone else needs to mind their damn business,” He agrees.
    “Like how Lee should just admit that she likes girls?” I say with a laugh. Ethan laughs too.
    “Exactly. I am going to throw a party when she finally comes out of the closet.”
    “Why is she scared?” I ask.
    “Our parents are religious. Like, crazy religious. And, while Lee doesn’t believe the bullshit they fed her, I think she’s just worried that people in the world will treat her the way they did about it. Fuck them though, she needs to be happy. I don’t care who she dates as long as they treat her with respect and make her happy.”
    “I second that.”
    Ethan rolls towards me. There are several inches between us but my heart still speeds up.
    “So seriously though, why are you so afraid of commitment?” I ask stupidly.
    This is a dangerous subject in my bed, alone, in the dark.
    “That is a question left better answered another night Red,” Ethan jumps out of my reach before I can punch him for calling me ‘red’ again. “Good night, don’t let the bedbugs bite.”
    The bed feels cold and empty now that he’s gone. But I fall asleep much better than usual with a smile on my lips.
     
    Ethan
                  I force myself to leave Abby’s room and head back to my own apartment before I do something I’ll regret. I’m feeling too out of control and all I can think about is tasting her lips. I’m so fucking horny and normally I would just go find a random but all I