hands slid down her sides and lightly caressed her back. When he flicked her lip with his tongue, she parted her mouth to invite him in. Instead, he pulled away and sighed. She was intrigued.
His eyes were shy beneath his dark lashes, and his lips curved with delight and desireâdesire he wouldnât force on her. Then the crowd was on its feet, moving to the swelling music she had forgotten about, and they had to rise and be part of the world.
She looked around her at the excited faces. They were different. He was different. She realized she didnât know their rules.
Bingo danced on her seat in a swirl of shirt, the gigglers danced in the aisle, and the crowd around bobbed and waved their arms. When Aiden pulled Vivian close to sway alongside him she met his embrace, but how close was she allowed? She didnât want to scare him away but she didnât like to wait. Maybe this was all wrong.
This is the last time,
she thought.
No more dates. I canât go through this agony.
The crowd was cheering and his fingers tipped her chin. His soft lips were on hers once more, his tongue more adventurous, but his hands still tame.
Itâs a game,
she thought,
a game of pretend we donât want sex so badly.
Maybe he thought wanting wasnât polite.
His eyes were closed. He enjoyed her taste. His nostrils flared with the smell of her. That was good. But as her eyes began to close, too, she saw familiar figures on the hill aboveâthe Five.
A busty girl was draped around Rafeâs neck, his hand inserted halfway down the back of her shorts. Three other teased-hair dolls in jeans and skimpy tops completed their entourage. This wasnât their musicâfar from it; they were spying on her.
Vivian took a lesson from Pudgy Boy and made an unmistakable gesture in their direction, behind Aidenâs back. Then her fingers curled in Aidenâs hair.
I will teach you to be less polite,
she thought.
6
That week Vivian couldnât tell if the singing in her blood was for Aiden or for the ripening Midsummer Moon. Each night she ran for joy, but
Itâs not love,
she argued to herself at breakfast as she traced Aidenâs face in her mind.
Iâm only having fun.
She came to school early so she would have more time with him, and they stole kisses in the hallway between classes. She liked to watch the color rise on the cheeks of the young men who passed, and see the envy on the faces of the unkissed girls.
I am someone now,
she thought.
Aiden had a job after school in a video store so she couldnât hang out with him then, but he called her in the evenings, waking her from her prerun nap, and it turned out they had a lot to talk about. He liked to play âwhat if.â Heâd say, âWhat if a mysterious illness wiped out everyone on Earth but us, what would we do?â and theyâd make up all sorts of possibilities.
Vivian was reluctant to answer his questions about her family at first, but before long she revealed that her father had died in a fire, and that she was always fighting with her mother, although she didnât tell him what those fights were about. He never made fun of anything she cared about, and he was always interested in what she had to say. What a relief to have someone to listen to her, even if she could only talk about half her life.
Kelly stopped showing up in the quad at lunch, and she took the gigglers with her wherever it was she went.
Smart choice, girl,
Vivian thought.
âCus one wrong move and Iâll be on you.
The thought crossed her mind that maybe now she understood why Esmé fought Astrid. She shrugged that off fast. Esmé had no right to fight for Gabriel; he was too young for her.
âThereâs an antiprom party at Bingoâs house Saturday,â Aiden said one day. âHer parents are away. Itâll be wild.â
âI like wild,â Vivian said, nuzzling his ear. Saturday maybe sheâd make him hers for
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