start treating her differently. It was nice to feel like she was actually getting to know him. He was very attentive and gave her everything she wanted. The doctor had convinced him that a lack of exercise would be detrimental to the pregnancy and he reluctantly allowed Leah to start resuming a normal level of activity. They both shared a passion for nature and began hiking together, hiring a crew of workers to come it and cut trails through the forest so that would be easy to walk. He’d only let her walk for a few miles a day, and she wasn’t allowed to walk up any hills, so he carried her whenever he deemed the terrain was too steep.
They spent a lot of time lounging on the boulder near the waterfall. It was a special place for them, but he still wouldn’t have sex with her. He always insisted she be naked when they lay together there and he spent hours exploring her breasts and suckling her nipples. Because he refused to fuck her, he made her pleasure him with her mouth when the groping got him to excited. He always returned the favor. Afterwards, they would cuddle together on the large rock and talk about the future. What they thought the baby would be like, what he wanted to name it, how long they should wait until they started trying for another one, and how many children should there be.
As they discussed things, he kept reminding her that the final decision would be his, yet he seemed to genuinely concerned with what she wanted. It was frustrating for her that he didn’t quite see her as an equal. It was thrilling in bedroom, but she wanted to have a real relationship and didn’t see how that could happen if she didn’t have a true input on the decisions. She pushed those thoughts away for now and had faith that after the baby came, he would become less controlling. Luckily for her, they wanted almost the same things when it came to family size and timing, so it wasn’t much of an issue.
He was extremely attentive about her condition and asked her how she felt constantly. If she was sick, it seemed to torture him and he wouldn’t leave her side. Fortunately, her morning sickness quickly passed and the doctor assured him she was having a particularly easy pregnancy so far. Still, his concern for her was suffocating. She’d taken several more tests to confirm that she was indeed carrying his baby. The doctor refused when he insisted that she have an ultrasound earlier than recommended, saying that nothing would show up and it would only cause him more anxiety. He flew into a rage that terrified Leah and she tearfully begged him not to send the doctor away because she felt so comfortable with her. Reluctantly, he agreed to wait and seemed remorseful after he’d calmed down for causing her unnecessary stress.
During one of her examinations, the doctor had confided in her that this was by far, the most challenging assignment she’d ever had. If it wasn’t for the obscene amount of money he was paying her there was no way she would tolerate this. She didn’t say it, but Leah could tell that she thought this entire situation was beyond strange. She could have given her an ultrasound a few weeks ago, but had misled him because she wanted to be sure there would be at least a flicker of the baby’s heart beat on the monitor. Despite the state of the art machine he’d purchased, a little blob is still a little blob to the untrained eye. She didn’t want to go through the process of explaining to him and deal with his wrath for the next two weeks or so until there would actually be concrete evidence of the life he’d planted inside Leah’s womb.
5
On the morning of the ultrasound, Leah awoke from a restless sleep. She knew there was nothing to worry about. This was only a formality, but Adam seemed to need it. He hadn’t been sleeping well for the last couple of days and seemed withdrawn. Yesterday he didn’t even go on their morning walk. Instead he spent all day in his office, the only room in the
David Markson, Steven Moore