Crash & Burn by Lisa Gardner Read Free Book Online

hopelessness, I fantasized of green grass. I pictured open fields and places to run. I wished for the sun upon my face.
    I yearned. A giant aching need that took me years to identify.
    I yearned for someone to love me.
    Oh, Vero, I’m so sorry.
    Dr. Celik leaves. The man who is my husband returns to my side. His face is serious again, deep lines creasing his dark features. But again, not unattractive.
    He tries to smile when he sees that I’m awake; it doesn’t reach his eyes. He’s worried. About me? Something else?
    His collared shirt is light blue, unbuttoned at his throat. My gaze focuses on the exposed patch of skin, sun-bronzed from years spent outside. For a fraction of an instant, I can picture myself kissing that spot, trailing my tongue along his collarbone. I don’t just remember him. I can taste him. It makes me shiver.
    â€œHey there.” He takes my hand, as if to reassure me. His thumb is calloused.
    My head pounds again. I am suddenly, bone-numbingly tired.
    He seems to know. “Headache?”
    I can’t talk. I just stare at him. His fingers release mine, rub my temples instead. I nearly sigh.
    â€œDo you remember the accident?” he asks me.
    I don’t, but I can’t speak yet, so I remain silent.
    â€œAccording to the CT scan,” he continues, “you’ve suffered another concussion, the third in six months. For that matter, you bruised your sternum, dislocated a few ribs, and earned enough stitches to rival a quilt. But the ER docs have already done a nicejob of patching you up. It’s the concussion, your
third
concussion, which has the neurologist concerned.”
    â€œCauses . . . migraines,” I murmur.
    â€œYes. Not to mention varying degrees of confusion, anxiety, general exhaustion, light sensitivity and short-term amnesia. Plus, you know, other minor complications such as not recognizing your own husband.” He tries to sound lighthearted; it doesn’t work. “Your memory will come back,” he says, more seriously. “The headaches will fade. You’ll regain your ability to focus and function. But it’s going to take time. You need to rest, give your scrambled brain cells a chance to recover.”
    â€œAlcohol is bad.”
    He stills, regards me carefully with his dark-brown eyes. “Alcohol is not recommended for people suffering from traumatic brain injuries.”
    â€œBut I drink.”
    â€œYou did.”
    â€œI’m a drunk.” He doesn’t say anything, but I can see the answer on his face. That once upon a time, he thought he would be enough for me. Obviously, he isn’t.
    â€œWhat did you dream about when you were little?” I ask.
    He frowns. He gets crow’s-feet around his eyes when he frowns. It should age him, make him less attractive. But again, it doesn’t.
    â€œI don’t know. Why do you ask?”
    â€œWhy not?”
    He smiles. His thumbs are still moving on my temples, massaging little circles. This close, I can catch a hint of spice wafting from his skin, a clean, soapy fragrance that is both familiar and slightly intoxicating. If I could move, I would lean into him, inhale deeper.
    But I don’t. Instead, I feel a darkness growing in the back of my head. A feeling of dread to counteract the allure of his scent.
    Run.
    But of course, I can’t. I lie on a hospital bed, pinned by white sheets and a concussed brain as my husband rubs my temples, strokes my hair.
    â€œI dreamed the first time I saw you,” he murmurs, his voice low and husky. “I spotted you, across the proverbial crowded room. You weren’t looking at me at all. But I saw you and I . . . I felt I’d waited my whole life just for that moment. To find you. You consumed me, Nicky. You still do.”
    His breath feathers across my cheek. Once again, I respond to the scent, would turn my head if I could.
    Run.
    Then I see it, a faded bruise along his