practice is going awesome,â I say. Because I canât admit to her how much it actually sucks.
âLooks like it,â Sadie says.
I lift my head up and really stare at her. And I realize something. That person I used to be. And that person she used to be. They just donât exist anymore. Itâs just like we learned in Sociology last semester. People are evolving all the time. And Sadie Dobyns and Molly Weller have evolved into completely different people.
âYouâre so rude,â I say.
âI was actually trying to be nice,â she counters.
âI didnât realize being a decent person required focused effort,â I say.
âWhy are you acting like this?â
âIâm sick,â I say. I hurl again. Sadie calmly shuts the water off. I lift my head out of the can in time to see her flick her wet fingers in the sink and pull a paper towel out of the wall unit.
She doesnât say anything else. She wads the towel and sets it in the trash can on top of my puke. She walks out of the bathroom and leaves me alone. The hinges release a sad-sounding creak as the door sweeps closed behind her.
I breathe deeply several times and then splash some cold water on my face. As I lean against the white tiled walls and focus on breathing, I see an earring. It sits on the sink ledge in an indentation intended to restrain a bar of soap. I reach out and finger the cold metal, poking my thumb against the blunt end of the earringâs post. Do I want this? The door swings open and I pull my hand back. Itâs Mrs. Pegner, the school nurse.
âAre you okay?â she asks. âWe had a report that somebody was sick in here.â
âItâs me,â I say. âIâm the one whoâs sick in here.â
She nods her gray head and walks to me.
âLetâs get you to the office and call your mom.â
âOkay,â I say. âWait. Somebody left this.â
I pick up the gold earring and it dangles from my fingers like a tiny chandelier.
âItâs a nice one,â she says. âIâll drop it at the Lost and Found.â
Mrs. Pegner takes it from me and slips it into her pocket. An intense calm sweeps over me. Itâs a more intense calm than when I realized I hadnât stolen that sophomoreâs missing watch. Iâm elated. Because I wanted that earring and I didnât take it. Right now itâs on a journey to a box, where its rightful owner may eventually track it down. Maybe this is my turning point. Mrs. Pegner hooks her arm around my waist and leads me out of the bathroom, around the corner, and down the long, orange, carpeted hallway to the nurseâs office.
It smells like spearmint mouthwash in here. I wonder why? I swallow. Actually, my mouth feels like it could use some spearmint mouthwash. I look around the room for a bottle of Listerine. The only bottles in here are two plastic two-liter containers of Pibb Zero.
As I lie on the cot, waiting for my recently phoned mother, I see Tate Arnold. He walks into the room and approaches my cot. With his shirt only half tucked, he looks amazing. And also surprised to see me.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asks. âDid you hurt yourself in practice?â
He crouches down a little. But not enough. Iâm basically looking at his knees.
âNo. Things got a little overheated in the gym,â I say. Iâm worried that heâs going to think Iâm too sick to go on our date tomorrow. Lying down on a cot during fourth period must make me look ridiculously ill.
âCan I get you anything?â he asks.
âNo.â
âI canât hang around and talk. Party in Calculus. We all passed our exam on inverse trigonometric functions. They sent me to collect the Pibb.â
I nod. âYouâll need ice,â I say, pointing to the counter. I wish I was at a party. I donât go to enough parties. My school social calendar relies too much on