choice. Just in neurons.
âAha,â said Dr. Wyatt. Then he smiled. âI see. Well, you and I neednât use the made-up worlds of fiction in order to talk about humans creating life.â
âRobots are real,â I said. âCloning of animals is viable. Human cloningâitâs going to happen.â
âYes. Exactly! Weâre living in the most exciting period of human history. Incredible control, incredible power over our own destiny, is almost within our grasp. Thereâs a wonderful world aheadânew mysteries unlock to our eyes every day. God created man?â His chin jerked up. âSo what? We are going to be able to do that, too. And eventuallyâit will all take timeâweâll do a better job at it.â
I stared at him. Of course the idea wasnât newâbut hearing it . . . hearing it from Quincy Wyatt . . . hearing it aloud . . . Do a better job than God?
âThereâs just so much wrong,â Dr. Wyatt added quietly. âDisease. Suffering.â His eyes were intense, but I had the sense he was looking inward. His voice was low. Sad.
âThere so much wrong, Eli. Thereâs so much human pain and anguish in this world that I believe neednât happen at all.â
CHAPTER 9
IT WAS 9:30 WHEN I returned home from dinner, usually a time at which my father could be found in the living room, his feet propped on the coffee table as, simultaneously, he watched television and read. Tonight, however, the apartment was silent and almost completely dark. Almost. There was a sliver of light beneath the door of my parentsââmy fatherâsâbed-room at the far end of the hall.
I stood at the other end, next to the living room, and for some minutes looked at the crack of light spilling onto the dreary brown carpet. Then I turned away and went into the kitchen, flipping the light switch on, dumping my backpack on a chair, and opening and closing the refrigerator. I knew I was just moving around for the sake of moving around. I was still pretty wired from having that incredible dinner and conversation with Dr. Wyatt.
I opened the refrigerator a second time. Then I shoved the refrigerator door shut with my elbow. I knew the noise would be audible throughout the apartmentâas had the noise of my key in the lock when I got home, and of my footsteps moving about ever since.
I was being ignored. And even though weâd been living very carefully together, my father and I, these past years, more roommates than family at timesâI suddenly realized that never before had I come home and not gotten some kind of greeting. Even on the few occasions in the last year when Iâd stayed out very late at Vivâs. Iâd come home those nightsâtrying to be quietâand my father would always hear me. He would stick his head out into the hall, and say, âGood, youâre home. Now go to bed.â
Heâd stayed up waiting those nights, I now let myself understand. Heâd stayed up, with the light under his bedroom door like tonight, and heâd done that even though I wouldnât ever tell him where I was. Even though all I would say to him was, âItâs nothing to worry about, not drugs or wild parties or drinking or anything.â
I sat down heavily on a kitchen chair. I closed my eyes briefly and saw my father as he had been this afternoon, at the graduation, with his fury boiling off him as he strode up the aisle and away.
Dr. Wyatt had said how much he looked forward to my starting work on Monday. He had driven me home just now. Had my father heard his Lexus idling outside when I got out of it? Had he heard my voice saying good-bye, see you Monday ?
It was a warm, pleasant evening. My fatherâs bedroom windows faced the street.
I ought to have called him. I always called when I was going to be at Vivâs.
Okay. I could go knock on his door now. I could just sayâ
Then I saw the note on the