beer in the fridge. We can pop open a few and talk old times.â
âAll right,â I said. âHow do I find the place?â
âIâm out on South Tacoma Way. You know which bus to take?â
âI think I can remember.â
âGet off at Seventy-eighth Street and come down the right hand side. Itâs the Green Lodge Trailer Court. Iâm in number seventeenâa blue and white Kenwood.â
âOK,â I told him. âIâll be out in a half hour or so.â
âIâll be lookinâ for you.â
I slowly hung up. This was going to be a mistake. Jack and I hadnât had anything in common for years now. I pictured an evening with the both of us desperately trying to think of something to say.
âMight as well get it over with,â I muttered. I stopped by a liquor store and picked up a pint of bourbon. Maybe with enough anesthetic, neither one of us would suffer too much.
I sat on the bus reading the ads pasted above the windows and watching people get off and on. They were mostly old ladies. Thereâs something about old ladies on busesâhave you ever noticed? Iâve never been able to put my finger on it, but whatever it is, it makes me want to vomit. Howâs that for an inscription on a tombstone? âHere Lies Daniel AldersâOld Ladies on Buses Made Him Want to Puke.â
Then I sat watching the streets and houses go by. I still couldnât really accept any of it as actuality. It all had an almost dreamlike qualityâlike coming in in the middle of a movie. Everybody else is all wrapped up in the story, but you canât even tell the good guys from the bad guys. Maybe thatâs the best way to put it.
The bus dropped me off at Seventy-eighth, and I saw the sickly green neon GREEN LODGE TRAILER COURT sign flickering down the block. I popped the seal on the pint and took a good belt. Then I walked on down to the entrance.
It was one of those âjust-twenty-minutes-from-Fort Lewisâ kind of places, with graveled streets sprinkled with chuckholes. Each trailer had its tired little patch of lawn surrounded by a chicken-wire fence to keep the kids out of the streets. Assorted broken-down old cars moldered on flat tires here and there. What few trees there were looked pretty discouraged.
It took me a while to find number seventeen. I stood outside for a few minutes, watching. I could see my brother putzing around insideâthin, dark, moving jerkily. Jack had always been like thatânervous, fast with his hands. Heâd always had a quick grin that heâd turn on when he wanted something. Hissuccess with women was phenomenal. He moved from job to job, always landing on his feet, always trying to work a deal, never quite making it. If he hadnât been my brother, Iâd have called him a small-time hustler.
I stood outside long enough to get used to his face again. I wanted to get past that strangeness stage when you say all kinds of silly-ass things because most of your attention is concentrated on the other personâs physical appearance. I think thatâs why reunions of any sort go sourâpeople are so busy looking at each other that they canât think of anything to say.
Finally I went up and knocked.
âDan,â he called, âis that you? Come on in.â
I opened the screen door and stepped inside.
âHey there, little brother, youâre lookinâ pretty good,â he said, grinning broadly at me. He was wearing a T-shirt, and I could see the tattoos on his arms. They had always bothered me, and I always tried not to look at them.
âHello, Jack,â I said, shaking his hand. I tried to come on real cool.
âGod damn,â he said, still grinning and hanging onto my hand. âI havenât seen you in three or four years now. Last time was when I came back from California that time, wasnât it? I think you were still in college, werenât