but it only took her a year or so to piss that away. She was sure Mrs. High Society for a while though. And then, of course, all the boy-friends started to show upâlike about a week after the funeral. Slimy bastards, every one of them. I tried to tell her they were just after the insurance money, but you never could talk to her. She knew it all.â
âShe hasnât got too much upstairs,â Jack agreed, âeven when sheâs sober.â
âAnyway, about every month, one of her barroom Romeos would break it off in her for a couple of hundred and split out on her. Sheâd cry and blubber and threaten to turn on the gas or some damned thing. Then after a day or so sheâd get all gussied up in one of those whorehouse dresses sheâs partial to and go out and find true love again.â
âSounds like a real bad scene.â
âA bummer. A two-year bummer. I cut out right after high schoolâknocked around for a year or so and then wound up in college. Itâs a good place to hide out.â
âYou seen her since you split?â
âCouple times,â I said. âOnce I had to bail her out of jail, and once she came to where I was staying to mooch some money for booze. Gave me that âAfter all, I am your motherâ routine. I told her to stick it in her ear. I think that kind of withered things.â
âShe hardly ever mentions you when I see her,â Jack said.
âMaybe if Iâm lucky sheâll forget me altogether,â I said. âI need her about like I need leprosy.â
âYou know something, little brother?â Jack said, grinning at me, âyou can be an awful cold-blooded bastard when you want to be.â
âComes from my gentle upbringing,â I told him. âHave another belt.â I waved at the whiskey bottle.
âI donât want to drink up all your booze,â Jack said, taking the pint. âRemember, I know how much a GI makes.â
âGo ahead, man,â I said. âTake a goddamn drink. I hit it big in a stud-poker game on the troopship. Iâm fat city.â I knew that would impress him.
âWon yourself a bundle, huh?â
âShit. I was fifteen hundred ahead for a while, but there was this old master sergeant in the gameâRiker his name wasâand he gave me poker lessons till who laid the last chunk.â
âHow much you come out with?â
âCouple hundred,â I said cautiously. I didnât want to encourage the idea that I was rich.
âWalkinâ around money anyway,â he said, taking a drink from the pint. He passed it back to me, and I noticed that his hands werenât really clean. Jack had always wanted a job where his hands wouldnât get dirty, but I saw that he hadnât made it yet. I suddenly felt sorry for him. He was smart and worked hard and tried his damnedest to make it, but things always turned to shit on him. I could see him twenty years from now, still hustling, still scurrying around trying to hit just the right deal.
âYou got a girl?â he asked.
âHad one,â I said. âShe sent me one of those letters about six months ago.â
âRough.â
I shrugged. âIt wouldnât have worked out anyway.â I got a little twinge when I said it. I thought Iâd pretty well drowned that particular cat, but it still managed to get a claw in my guts now and then. Iâd catch myself remembering things or wondering what she was doing. I took a quick blast of bourbon.
âLotsa women,â Jack said, emptying his beer. âJust like streetcars.â
âSure,â I said. I looked around. The furniture was a bit kidscarred, and the TV set was small and fluttered a lot, but it was someplace. I hadnât had any place for so long that Iâd forgotten how it felt. From where I was sitting, I could see a mirror hanging at a slant on the wall of the little passage leading back to the
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