you?â
âYeah, I think so,â I said.
âYouâve put on some beef since then, huh?â He playfully punched me in the shoulder. âWhat are you now? About a hundred and ninety?â
âOne-eighty,â I said. âA lot of itâs German beer.â I slapped my belly.
âYouâre lookinâ better. You were pretty scrawny last time I seen you. Sit down, sit down, for Chrissake. Here gimme your jacket. Itâs too fuckinâ hot for that thing anyway. Donât you guys get summer uniforms?â
âMine are all rolled up in the bottom of my duffle bag,â I told him, pulling off the jacket. I saw him briefly glance at the pint I had tucked in my belt. I wasnât trying to hide it.
He hung my blouse over a kitchen chair. âHow about a beer?â
âSure.â I put the brown-sacked pint on the coffee table and sat down on the slighly battered couch. He was fumbling around in the refrigerator. I think he was a little nervous. I got a kick out of that for some reason.
I looked around. The trailer was like any otherâfactory-made, filled with the usual cheap furniture that was guaranteed to look real plush for about six weeks. It had the peculiar smell trailers always have and that odd sense of transience. Somehow it suited Jack. I think heâd been gravitating toward a trailer all his life. At least he fit in someplace. I wondered what I was gravitating toward.
âHere we go,â he said, coming back in with a couple caps of beer. âI just put the kids to bed, so weâve got the place to ourselves.â He gave me one of the cans and sat in the armchair.
âHow many kids have you got?â I asked him.
âTwoâMarlene and Patsy. Marleneâs two and a half, and Patsyâs one.â
âGood deal,â I said. What the hell else can you say? I pushed the pint over to him. âHere, have a belt of bourbon.â
âDrinkinâ whiskey,â he said approvingly.
We both had a belt and sat looking at each other.
âWell,â I said inanely, âwhat are you up to?â I fished out a cigarette to give myself something to do.
âOh, not a helluva lot really, Dan. Iâve been workinâ down the block at the trailer sales place and helping Sloane at his pawnshop now and then. You remember him, donât you? Itâs a real good deal for me because I can take what he owes me out in merchandise, and it donât show up on my income tax. Margaretâs workinâ in a dime store, and the trailerâs paid for, so weâre in pretty good shape.â
âHowâs the Old Lady? You heard from her lately?â It had to get around to her sooner or later. I figured Iâd get it out of the way.
âMom? Sheâs in Portland. I hear from her once in a while. Sheâs back on the sauce again, you know.â
âOh, boy,â I said with disgust. That was really the last damned straw. My mother had written me this long, tearjerker letter while I was in Germany about how she had seen the light and was going to give up drinking. I hadnât answered the damned thing because I really didnât give a shit one way or the other, but Iâd kind of hoped she could make it. I hadnât seen her completely sober since I was about twelve, and I thought it might be kind of a switch.
âYou and her had a beef, didnât you?â Jack asked, lighting a cigarette.
âNot really a beef,â I said. âIt just all kind of built up. You werenât around after Dad died.â
âNaw. I saw things goinâ sour long before that. Man, I wasin Navy boot camp three days after my seventeenth birthday. I barely made it back for the funeral.â He jittered the cigarette around in his hands.
âYeah, I remember. After you left, she just got worse and worse. The Old Man hung on, but it finally just wore him down. His insurance kind of set us up for a while,
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