some rest. We got a long day tomorrow with the
car and all.” His words were languid, he sounded tired. I just stood
there, lost for words, not able to describe what I was feeling for
this man. Maybe it was sympathy wrapped up in a big ole ball of
sorrow.
I was wearing practically nothing. My nightie was very trans-
parent. It was made of sexy satin and lace, cut short way above the
thigh. The cleavage was more than an eyeful since I wasn’t wear-
ing a bra. I was about as nude as a woman could get except for my
panties. Talk about a girl’s pride. “Can I have a drink?” I heard my
voice say, husky with a feminine timber of boldness.
“ Hope, I got a lot on my mind,” he said running his hand over
his short cropped hair. “Get some rest, I’ll have breakfast waiting
for you when you wake in the morning.”
He just stared at something in the window. Something only he
could see. I recognized the hur t on that man’s face, the way only a
woman can. Barefooted, I padded across the shag carpeting and
fixed myself a drink. He turned and looked at me annoyingly.
“ Didn’t you hear what I just said, girl?” His voice was slightly
slurred. I ignored him and bent down to retrieve a piece of ice that
I intentionally dropped to the floor. I flirted just to get his atten-
tion, to see his reaction. Ever since we met, he treated me like his
little sister. The man never paid the slightest bit of attention to
me. I wondered if there was such a thing as a gay thug. I sat down
right in front of him, crossed my legs ladylike and took a swig of
my drink. It burned in a nice way. Quiet engulfed us like a gentle
storm. I was lost for words.
What am I doing?
I continued to ask
myself.
“ So what are you going to do when you get to Tallahassee?” I
asked.
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“ I dunno … I dunno …” he shook his head somberly. “Maybe
find a job and save up some money to go to night school, get me
a lawyer.”
“ Yeah, that would be a good idea. You could use a good
lawyer, because you damn sure know how to find trouble. You are
a jinxy-ass man.” With that, he erupted in hilarious laughter, full
and vibrant. The kind of hearty laughter that would stand out in
a room full of people, loud and jovial. It reminded me of Eddie
Murphy’s singsong cackle. Masculine and strong, I couldn’t help
but smile, too as tears rolled down his cheeks as he continued to
laugh. I poured myself another drink, a nightcap I told myself. I
already had a buzz. I took a sip and raised up to stand, I slightly
staggered but he did not notice. “I’m going to get some rest.
Check out time is 11 o’clock and it’s just about 4 o’clock.” He just
looked at me, his ebony eyes opaque slants, eyes that I couldn’t
read. He stood. His bronze body was sculpted like one of them
African statues of a warrior. His stomach was chiseled. His brawny
chest was big and hairy. He wore a large platinum chain.
The light from the swimming pool shimmered off our bodies.
I bit down on my bottom lip as he walked toward me. No one can
convince me that a man and a woman, in the solitude of the night,
confronted by their riveting intimacy, do not produce a kind of
celestial energy that holds them bound to the laws of nature. It’s
fervid heat of unquenched passion. I felt my body tingling as if I
were on fire. I knew that if he touched me we would both burn in
a fahrenheit of passion. The Hennessy, mingled with his manly
scent, was like an aphrodisiac to my feminine loins.
“ Hope I’m sorry for everything that I’ve put you through. I
can’t thank you enough for what you’ve done, and to be truthful
with you, I’m really not a …not a …” he stammered and for some
reason I felt my body leaning toward him like how gravity pulls.
“ I’m really not a jinx,” he said awkwardly. This time I burst
out in laughter spraying his face with spittle. For some reason, I
was feeling giddy. I wiped his